u/ShoddyCar4783

I want feedback on how I can get better, oppinions if I have any chance with that girl,or at least some help and a way to get out of my obsession...

So basically,i never was atracted to anyone. I was super mysoginistic, i still am but I m trying to stop being like this.

I fell in love with a girl. Never meet her,never properly talked with her,never even heard her voice..it s been a month and i am going insane.

She posted on a subredit about one of my favorite games. She was asking for help into finding a gift for her boyfriend. I read all the comments,all the replies...She was so nice and considerate,she had a big list where she wrote everything her boyfriend ever mentioned.

Then,at some point, because someone said that they are a "couple goal",she posted some pics with her and her boyfriend.

....She is 100% my type,she is the woman that i believe did not exist from every fabtasy,she has the personality of an angel,she is everything I wanted and i fell head over hills for her both from her attitude ,the way she talked, the pictures,the make up, how thoughtfull she was,everything

I made a fool of myself. Made her uncomfortable with some stupid comments.

I am just...I don t know. I really like her,i know she has a boyfriend,i know I have no chance,i tried to get over it but I just can't... It had been a month.

I want to be better. I want to be a feminist because i know she is since she is goth/punk/both. At least i want to stop thinking about just and only her. It s starting to get ridiculous, as,again,i don t even know what her name is .

I need help with that ,please.

I've tried focusing on my other hobbies and the small number of friends I have, I've tried focusing on my games, nothing is working. I go back to thinking about her and I quickly spiral into thinking badly about her boyfriend or thinking about her in a misoginistic way. I know it is stupid,i know I don t deserve her. I know i should be better

I'm willing to try ....I don t know what to be honest. Most things that you might suggest to me, except from the old "go touch some grass". I live in an area where people are not that understanding and i am the laughing stock of my city. I am open to trying new hobbies or things that don't involve leaving my house

So basically,i never was atracted to anyone. I was super mysoginistic, i still am but I m trying to stop being like this.

She posted on a subredit about one of my favorite games. She was asking for help into finding a gift for her boyfriend. I read all the comments,all the replies...She was so nice and considerate,she had a big list where she wrote everything her boyfriend ever mentioned.

Then,at some point, because someone said that they are a "couple goal",she posted some pics with her and her boyfriend.

....She is 100% my type,she is the woman that i believe did not exist from the p0rn i watch.

I made a fool of myself. Made her uncomfortable with some stupid comments.

I am just...I don t know. I really like her,i know she has a boyfriend,i know I have no chance,i tried to get over it but I just can't... It had been a month.