Sorry I don't know where else to post this. Not diagnosed.
A while back my sister said that I'm probably just stuck in fight/flight. And ever since I can't stop blaming myself.
I 100% think that ME is a biological illness, for others. But I can't stop feeling like I made my anxiety turn into fatigue and now I hate myself.
I might have PEM but it's also such a vague concept.
I'm 100% convinced that my "cfs" symptoms come from suppressing my anxiety. Can I safely do nervous system work?
So I just need confirmation. Sorry I will leave this sub soon.
If compression socks and electrolytes, or an energy drink helps it's not ME/cfs?
And if it's not ME/cfs I don't have PEM? Then it's another kind of flare up that I can push through.
We need a real test for this illness, and we need it like yesterday. But what if we never get one? What if the research doesn't lead anywhere?
I'm not diagnosed which makes me scared and frustrated. Not that there's a lot of help available where I live even if I was. And my OCD makes me doubt myself all the time. It's all just so frustrating.
I was thinking about Decode ME again. From my understanding it can be seen in our DNA.
But what can be seen is just if a person can get the illness, not if we actually have it?
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I know I've read about lupus that it might not be just one illness, can it be similar with ME/cfs?
Because I've been thinking a lot about recovery stories and severity and coexisting illnesses.
Sorry for another post. I've tried to find the answer already.
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How do I know if I have ME or if it's somatization due to anxiety?
I do suffer from severe anxiety and I wait for treatment for it. So I have a hard time trusting myself.
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The biggest reason that I think/hope it's just anxiety is because if I "refuse" to feel my pain or tiredness my anxiety gets really bad.
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I also keep getting triggered by *that* kind of content so that's another argument that it's anxiety, right?
Do we have any newer information about how many people with ME that recovers or improves?
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Everyday I'm feed with *that* kind of content and it makes me feel useless. So maybe having some real statistics could help me.
I just finished Cozy Caravan and loved the cooking/crafting mechanics in it. I also loved Tales of the Shire. Are there any other games out there that have similar mechanics or just focus a lot on cooking.
I thought I was doing better. I should be doing better. I have no stress. I don't work. I'm even bored sometimes.
But now I'm PEMing again. I guess I played too much on the Switch. Or maybe I slept too much. I don't know. I should have paced better.
I should be trying to get an official diagnosis. But that feels like giving up. I 100% belive that ME is a physical illness. I know that it is. I just, maybe, don't belive in it for me.