I thought I did everything right
Today I got sexually harassed. To be more specific, someone touched my butt.
But what angered me the most was the fact that I thought I did everything right, everything I could. I didn't go out late, I didn't party or drink (not that I say that if someone does that that wrong - no, it's not). When it happened, I immediately sought help, trying to find camera footage and report it. But all I got was that his face isn't clear and they can't identify him, and that the fact he touched me could be a mistake because it happened so fast, even though the elevator button is miles away. I also told this to a friend because I can't bear this all by myself. Seemingly, I did everything I could. BUT I STILL DIDN'T GET THE CLOSURE OR THE HELP I NEED.
So here I am crying my eyeballs out, and scared to go outside because it happened right where I live. Because I feel helpless. I have always hated men since I was very little, so I tried to minimize contact with them. I feel grossed out just by them looking at me in a slightly creepy way. Not all men, whatever, yeah, I still love my dad, my brother, but they are not feminists in any way, so I can't trust them to tell them entirely either.
And most importantly, I felt bad for women, or victims of sexual assault, as well as myself to live in a society where some men can't keep their f*cking hands off others.
Does anyone have any advice on how to get through this and go out to the place I got assaulted again, because I need to go through that elevator almost every f*cking day, and I can't be scared like this forever.