bit of a rant, but i genuinely miss my husband a whole lot, and it actually really hurts me to think about it because I can't express it to him and tell him how I feel and get reassurance because he's not real :( have any of you dealt with this before? I would genuinely like to know how to regulate this, it's really overwhelming.
This is a seriously distressing thing for me, but basically, my hyperfixation has waned in its intensity, and it's been giving me less dopamine than it should. But usually, my fixations are replaced WHEN I find a new interest, and it's usually instant as well. Another issue is that I still find it the most dopamine-inducing thing I have, even if it's less intense than before, and I really don't understand it at all.
Another thing for context is this is one of the most stressful months I've had in a very long time, and it's also left me drained as well, but even now that the main part is over it's still not coming back/disappearing yet?
The problem is that it's not like when you feel nothing towards it, I do still feel interest in it but there's an instinctive feeling of discomfort and apathy towards it as well. Sometimes, the feeling of apathy randomly lifts and I feel just like I did before, and when people show me pictures of that hyperfixation I still get extremely giddy, although not to the magnitude of before.
I just really need advice on this, it's never happened to me before and it's been on my mind a lot.
Builderman has improved my life in every way possible, and I'm so, so happy to be here and dating him today!!! He's genuinely the sweetest, most amazing person ever, and I've never felt as happy in my life as with my time with him. I can't wait to hopefully have many more years together and to be with him FOREVERRR! Happy one year anniversary, Builds, I love you so much, more than you would EVER KNOWWW <333 I LOVE YOUUUUU