u/Silent_Speaker_2022

Why does the wound still deeply ache, 

When I was the one who chose to break? 

Why do I suddenly thirst and crave 

For the phantom love we couldn't save?

From the playful, gentle teasing we knew, 

To the fury that left me breathless and blue,

From the quiet praise that made me glow, 

To the bitter wars that laid us low

Where did the current shift its course? 

Where did we lose our gentle force?

Why did I swallow the quiet stings, 

When you spoke of dark and hurtful things? 

Why did I sit in the silent dark, 

And let you tear my aching heart?

Why did I silence the boundaries I needed, 

Leaving the words of my safety unheeded? 

Was it the love that held me still, 

Bending my spirit to your will?

But could I have truly rewritten the script, 

When I know how deeply my own soul slipped? 

I tried, though my hands were shaking and small

God knows I truly gave it my all.

Why couldn't you carry my heart with care? 

I wonder if love was ever even there. 

As your reckless words made my tear-ducts swell, 

Did a single shadow of sorrow fall? 

Did your chest ever ache at all?

Why was the blame always cast on my name, 

For wanting the fire of your beautiful flame? 

For loving too deeply, for giving too much, 

For wanting to open my life to your touch?

The joy that I carry, the colors I see

I wanted to paint them for you, to be free. 

To show you that life could be vast and divine, 

Far beyond the dull hatred you kept in your shrine, 

The heavy resentment that buried the light.

I know you have your own way of seeing the world, 

Where tiny things matter, and flags are unfurled. 

I was willing to step inside your shoes, 

To understand the rules you'd choose.

But were you ever going to look through my eyes? 

To see where the pain and the loneliness lies? 

I tried, my sweet love, to be all that you sought, 

To fit in the mold that your expectations bought.

But the price of your love was too heavy a fee

I was losing myself, and keeping nobody free.

**UnLove**

Though I have carved into words and told 

Of all the bitter pain you caused me to hold, 

Me being me, I cannot twist love into hate; 

I cannot entirely blame a cruel fate.

I saw you today, after a lifetime away, 

After we walked out of each other’s day. 

And you still smiled, so casual and free, 

As if no wreckage lay between you and me. 

A sudden, deep ache began to torment my chest, 

As I forced a ghost of a smile to answer the rest.

For a beautiful year, I called you my own, 

The most loyal devotion I ever had known. Y

et you cut me in ways that no other could dare

Why was your hand so heavy and severe?

Why did you force me to tear us apart? 

Why did you deafen your ears to my heart? 

Why does the embers of love still burn blue? 

How do I learn to unlove you?

You knew I was fragile, an emotional tide, 

Yet you claimed you chose me to walk by your side. 

You said you saw "potential" hidden in my frame

Was that not enough for you to fight for my name?

Why did you let the glass shatter and break? 

Why didn’t you find a path for our sake? 

To keep us together, to stand in the storm? 

Is a textbook the only thing keeping you warm?

To choose a near deadline, to sit with a test, 

Instead of a kiss, or a hand on my chest

It leaves me rejected, unwanted, and cold, 

Believing I’m asking for too much to hold.

I was a person to cherish, not a lesson to learn, 

Not a grade to be weighed or a page you could turn. 

So I’ll walk through the ache of this unchosen view, 

And teach my own heart how to unlove you.

I sit down and write these gentle words,
Just to remind my own fragile heart:
That even though the chapters had to close,
And we ultimately had to part,
I was loved.

The beginning felt just like a beautiful dream,
The middle became our sweet, steady routine.
The ending drifted into a quiet, soft fade,
But through every single phase we made,
I was loved.

I gave absolutely everything I had to give,
And I know you did the exact same, too.
I am so proud of you for how hard you tried,
Even if our wavelengths just never quite aligned,
And that is totally fine.
I was loved.

We whispered baby in the quiet spaces,
And there was never a single doubt.
Even if I wished the hugs lasted a little longer,
And each kiss felt just a little sweeter,
Still, I was loved.

Now that the storm has finally cleared away,
I look back at the past and clearly see
Just how innocent and pure we really were.
And for that memory, I am entirely content,
Knowing I was loved.

So I just wanted you to know this truth,
That even though we both had our faults,
I will never lay all the heavy blame on you.
A quiet echo of the hurt still lingers for now,
Yet, I know I was loved.

I have to believe that fate has its own ways,
And even if it sounds a little foolish to say,
I pray our paths don't drift completely apart.
I hope we’ll meet again when we’re finally grown,
To say “we loved each other” with a proud smile,
And no longer a heavy heart.

No matter what happened between us in the end,
This entire journey has taught me so much to bear.
I truly hope you feel the exact same way, too,
And most of all, no matter how much time passes,
I hope you know
You were loved.
You still are.

Pain

You meant the entire world to me, 

I loved you with a depth untold. 

How did we end up as strangers? 

Was our love not enough to hold?

Every morning, I raced to your side, 

Singing aloud on my scooter, free. 

Happiness bursting, a radiant tide— 

You were the reason morning found me.

Tucked in your car, we’d talk for hours, 

Your laughter was a spell that held me tight. 

I’d never known a joy with such power; 

You were my sanctuary, my sweetest light.

And you were always there to guide me, 

Whenever a concept would twist and strain. 

Patiently unlocking the numbers beside me, 

Teaching with care, easing the brain.

But here I sit, tracing these lines, 

Heavy with a love that’s turning to bile. 

Poisoned by the hurt of your designs, 

Caught between a curse and a smile.

How could you make me feel so small? 

Weaponizing my shadows, casual and cold, 

When you knew exactly where I’d fall, 

And the fragile truths I had told.

How could you stand so guarded and proud, 

When I came to you weeping, broken in two? 

Begging for a shift, crying out loud, 

But a simple grace was too much for you.

I wish I had been a priority in your eyes, 

The way I crowned you king of my domain. 

I wish your devotion could simply rise 

To even half of the love in my veins.

I wish it didn’t have to end in this part, 

Where the final blow was mine to sign. 

But I had to shatter your fragile heart 

To salvage what was left of mine.

Why?

Why does the wound still deeply ache, 

When I was the one who chose to break? 

Why do I suddenly thirst and crave 

For the phantom love we couldn't save?

From the playful, gentle teasing we knew, 

To the fury that left me breathless and blue,

From the quiet praise that made me glow, 

To the bitter wars that laid us low

Where did the current shift its course? 

Where did we lose our gentle force?

Why did I swallow the quiet stings, 

When you spoke of dark and hurtful things? 

Why did I sit in the silent dark, 

And let you tear my aching heart?

Why did I silence the boundaries I needed, 

Leaving the words of my safety unheeded? 

Was it the love that held me still, 

Bending my spirit to your will?

But could I have truly rewritten the script, 

When I know how deeply my own soul slipped? 

I tried, though my hands were shaking and small

God knows I truly gave it my all.

Why couldn't you carry my heart with care? 

I wonder if love was ever even there. 

As your reckless words made my tear-ducts swell, 

Did a single shadow of sorrow fall? 

Did your chest ever ache at all?

Why was the blame always cast on my name, 

For wanting the fire of your beautiful flame? 

For loving too deeply, for giving too much, 

For wanting to open my life to your touch?

The joy that I carry, the colors I see

I wanted to paint them for you, to be free. 

To show you that life could be vast and divine, 

Far beyond the dull hatred you kept in your shrine, 

The heavy resentment that buried the light.

I know you have your own way of seeing the world, 

Where tiny things matter, and flags are unfurled. 

I was willing to step inside your shoes, 

To understand the rules you'd choose.

But were you ever going to look through my eyes? 

To see where the pain and the loneliness lies? 

I tried, my sweet love, to be all that you sought, 

To fit in the mold that your expectations bought.

But the price of your love was too heavy a fee

I was losing myself, and keeping nobody free.

UnLove

Though I have carved into words and told 

Of all the bitter pain you caused me to hold, 

Me being me, I cannot twist love into hate; 

I cannot entirely blame a cruel fate.

I saw you today, after a lifetime away, 

After we walked out of each other’s day. 

And you still smiled, so casual and free, 

As if no wreckage lay between you and me. 

A sudden, deep ache began to torment my chest, 

As I forced a ghost of a smile to answer the rest.

For a beautiful year, I called you my own, 

The most loyal devotion I ever had known. Y

et you cut me in ways that no other could dare

Why was your hand so heavy and severe?

Why did you force me to tear us apart? 

Why did you deafen your ears to my heart? 

Why does the embers of love still burn blue? 

How do I learn to unlove you?

You knew I was fragile, an emotional tide, 

Yet you claimed you chose me to walk by your side. 

You said you saw "potential" hidden in my frame

Was that not enough for you to fight for my name?

Why did you let the glass shatter and break? 

Why didn’t you find a path for our sake? 

To keep us together, to stand in the storm? 

Is a textbook the only thing keeping you warm?

To choose a near deadline, to sit with a test, 

Instead of a kiss, or a hand on my chest

It leaves me rejected, unwanted, and cold, 

Believing I’m asking for too much to hold.

I was a person to cherish, not a lesson to learn, 

Not a grade to be weighed or a page you could turn. 

So I’ll walk through the ache of this unchosen view, 

And teach my own heart how to unlove you.

Though I have carved into words and told 

Of all the bitter pain you caused me to hold, 

Me being me, I cannot twist love into hate,

I cannot entirely blame a cruel fate.

I saw you today, after a lifetime away, 

After we walked out of each other’s day. 

And you still smiled, so casual and free, 

As if no wreckage lay between you and me. 

A sudden, deep ache began to torment my chest, 

As I forced a ghost of a smile to answer the rest.

For a beautiful year, I called you my own, 

The most loyal devotion I ever had known.

Yet you cut me in ways that no other could dare

Why was your hand so heavy and severe?

Why did you force me to tear us apart? 

Why did you deafen your ears to my heart? 

Why does the embers of love still burn blue? 

How do I learn to unlove you?

You knew I was fragile, an emotional tide, 

Yet you claimed you chose me to walk by your side. 

You said you saw potential hidden in my frame

Was that not enough for you to fight for my name?

Why did you let the glass shatter and break? 

Why didn’t you find a path for our sake? 

To keep us together, to stand in the storm? 

Is a textbook the only thing keeping you warm?

To choose a near deadline, to sit with a test, 

Instead of a kiss, or a hand on my chest

It leaves me rejected, unwanted, and cold, 

Believing I’m asking for too much to hold.

I was a person to cherish, not a lesson to learn, 

Not a grade to be weighed or a page you could turn. 

So I’ll walk through the ache of this unchosen view, 

And teach my own heart how to unlove you.

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