Im not sure why, and I didn’t realize how much it meant to me, but immediately after I regretted it. However, it’s kind of nice to see feel how at home and comfy I was with my natural body hair before.
Ready for it to grow back so I can enjoy the little things about it again lol
I’ve been slowly coming to terms with my identity more. I live in a small town with my parents and am moving later this fall/summer to university in a much more queer accepting town. I’ve tried to quit questioning my identity since I go in circles with it and just told myself I’d wait until I’m in a more accepting space because I know my current environment doesn’t feel safe enough to really allow exploration to come up naturally.
I’m trying to find roommates and most things I find are people looking for a specific sex. I totally understand this but it’s throwing me off. I feel like I’m not really a girl. I feel like I’m being misleading and I just don’t want to be labeled a girl. Then I see people looking for other queer roommates and I don’t feel like I appear queer at all or like I’d fit in either.
I know this is probably less of a deal than I’m making it. I’ve been struggling a lot recently with my sexual orientation and gender identity and fearing how hard it’s going to be at finding love. I also feel like maybe I’d like to take testosterone but once I move I’ll finally be able to compete in a sport I haven’t had access to in years because of an abuser. So that’s hard to think about too because I know that would limit my options and I’ve missed this sport so much. I’m ultimately just already so exhausted of not fitting in and havent even changed my pronouns.