Heyy!!!!!!!!! HELP NEEDED!!!
I am a trans masc ftm in a very conservative very no privacy househol. I am a minor. when I first knew I was gay I was 9 I knew I liked girls and I told my mom and I was soo stupid!!! My whole life I was bullied and beat by my abusive parents when I was 4. my dad especially was very abusive. then my dad cheated on my mom!! It was very insane, mind u my dad used to watch porn yuri straight and Yaoi ones. He divorced my mom because he didn’t wanna clean the dishes bcs he’s not a girl!! Mind u my mom got out of a surgery that day bcs of cancer!! Fast forward years I had a freind ship that was toxic they said I was satanic and liked satanic stuff they only knew I was queer so I got in the closet again I dressed like them did everything like them then they made fake stories abt me and cursed at me and my mom. I was then sent to another school!! It was an only girls school and I live in the uae so they were spoiled sm. Js saying but not all r!!! Got bullied from where I am fro and how I look and how my eyes looked. I then knew I was trans. I then came out to my mom as bi and she theratned to kill me! I then had a gf!! MTF trans fe. she was a lesbian but she insisted on me. I got her makeup, wigs, nintendo etc. but she made me dysphoric abt my chest and kept insisting she’s a lesbian. I always dented it and said it’s ok she’ll learn! My mom then saw our texts and called her mom and thereated both of them to kill them and hurt them in many ways. She also burnt some of my hair, chased me w a knife and tried to stab me. (Thank god my pillow saved me). My mom mind u has anger issues and can get mad and abusive sometime! tried then talking to her. no body knows abt my gf for 4 months then she texted me. Her dad and mom threatend to kill me bcs im trans. So she thought i was dead, a way of coping. She even went to conversation therapy and when i texted her she said she’s scared of me and that convo never happened and she wants to go to college and she doesn’t wanna to to jail, et. now I’m in Jordan w my dad and he doesn’t pay for my mom btw monthly so he makes me work cook and clean bcs im a gir!! he doesnt want me to go to school and pay bcs IM a girl and dosent want me to leave Jordan and im stuck here. I still fave problems bcs im a gir. I belive every trans ftm should have femenisim rights even if hes a guy but faves problems like this. So, who ever activist, helper, any one, etc. can tell my story abt trans rights and femenisim id be so glad!