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This episode must be my one's favorite one in the whole series, all of the good things are woven together in the end.

Seeing Alexis high school graduation ceremony hit me much harder than I expeccted. To me, I used to always think it was just a small event in life - something ordinary that everyone goes through, that couldn't be simpler. But maybe it brought back memories of my own high school graduation, which didn't turn out quite well . In many way, neither did my whole high school experience.

Maybe that's why it hurts. It reminds me of the choices I wish I had made sooner, and the things I should've figured out much earlier. There are just so much regrets during my high school and I think it should've been better.

So I really hope I can get a opportunity to go back and relive my high school years, just like Alexis did.

And for David and Patrick, I am so glad they were able to meet each other at that moment, when Patrick said: "I've never done this before, that's my first time with a guy, thank you for making that happen to us" I almost cried. I was once just as confused as Patrick, and it took me years to figure out who I truly am. Only I know how hard and painful that journey was.

I just finished the Mass Effect trilogy, and Male Shepard / Kaidan is honestly the best-written slow-burn M/M romance I’ve ever experienced in a game. Ever since then, I’ve been looking for the same kind of game with a similar sci-fi space vibe, where you can recruit squadmates, get to know them over time, and develop relationships with them as the story progresses.

Michael, the guy with the largest profile in the image, won me over the sec I saw him 🥰😍. He gives me major Kaiden vibes from his appearance and the first trailer: a classic soilder type, straight-lace, reliable energy, and handsome, smoking hot😍. Zafar seems quite great too, but long-haired man aren’t my thing LOL😂.

As for the another game Exdous, I watched it's trailer and gameplay I also think it's so amazing. It's completely gives me MassEffect vibes, so I am also really looking forward to it.

But I don't quite like the appearance of main character Jun. I hope the custom role system allows me to customize the character’s appearance the way I want. As for the squadmates, honestly, I have to admit that none of them really appeal to me appearance-wise so far. Hopefully, as I gradually get to know them, I’ll end up falling for one of them.

I recently just started playing this game called Coral Island to unwind and I've been quite enjoying it so far. I love the beautifully designed character's portraits and the tropical seaside vibe so much.

Also the MEN in this game are actually amazing. Mark especially- Damn, he is smoking Hot, can't wait to get to know him better. Kenny looks great too in that Cowboy-style beach outfit so now I am still on the fence about who to romance, Can I just have them both?😳

I love this mission so much. Honestly, I think it contains some of the best romantic interactions between Shepard and Kaidan in the entire trilogy. Ever since they got back together, they've basically been flirting with each other without even realizing it. The chemistry between them is absolutely insane.

What impresses me most is how efficient the writing is. BioWare trully only used a few simple lines to reveal so much about Shepard and Kaidan's relationship. Their history, their personalities, their lingering doubts, and their feelings for each other are all right there beneath the surface. Every time I replay these scenes, I find something new to appreciate. I don't think I'll ever get tired of walking through them again and again.

Okay, let's start with the first scene: "Don't Kaidan me!" -- One of my favorite!

I don't know how you guys felt the first time you heard that line, but I thought it was hilarious and adorable when Kadien said that, or maybe it's probably he's just cute as hell so everything he says is cute😂. As a non-native English speaker who didn't grow up in an English-speaking environment, that was actually the first time I realized you could use someone's name like that. It felt so fresh to me.

And "Sheaprd I need a straight answer", The moment I heard that, my brain immediately went:

"I only have a gay one. Will that work?" 😂 like saying I love you and Kissing your little cuty face, or you want extra paycheck tonight.

And I found that Kadien is so obessed with "Straight" I still remembered the hospital scene where he says, "Can you be straight with me, Shepard?" and my brain was just like: "Are you sure about that, Kaidan?" 🤣 I swear, my boyfriend talks about being straight more than anyone else in this game, and somehow that's become incredibly funny and adorable to me.

Then there's the moment before that when they first discover Cerberus on Mars.

Kaidan asks, "You don't know?"

And Shepard's response:

"I'm not with them anymore, if that's what you're asking."

Always makes me laugh.

In my head, I guess Shepard is just thinking:

"Oh, for the love of—Kaidan.., we've been reunited for five minutes and you‘re already talking about my "EX" now" You stubborn little bastard❤️.

"You of all people should know what I'm about, Kaidan." That line always reminds me of the Citadel Coup conversation:

"You know in your gut that I'm right. Listen to it. Kaidan, you're always true to what you believe. I admire that about you."

I think that's one of the biggest reasons I love Kaidan as a character. He's true to what he believes. He's independent, capable. He's not the kind of person who just nods and agrees. If something doesn't make sense to him, he'll question it. If he thinks something is wrong, he'll say it. He won't stop asking questions or challenging authority just because Shepard is the Commander who saved the galaxy or I am the one who he love deeply. He has his own principles and his own moral compass, just like Sheapard. Like Shepard says, that's why I admire you.

In fact, I kind of love it when he challenges Shepard. Not going to lie... it's a little hot. 😏 Don't you think?

I think most Kaidan fans probably feel this way. As players, the reunion on Mars feels incredibly sweet because we've been waiting for it for so long. But when I try to look at it from Kaidan's perspective, I don't think happiness is the only thing he's feeling. If anything, I think his heart is full of conflict.

The moment Cerberus shows up on Mars, all those painful memories must come rushing back. The person he loved died, came back working with Cerberus, disappeared again, and now suddenly reappears right in the middle of another Cerberus attack.

That's why he kept questioning Sheaprd about Ceberus and in the meantime Kept saying he's Sorry I didn't mean that. It's like he's caught between what his heart wants to believe and what his head keeps warning him about.

The more I think about it, the more my heart breaks for him. He has to carry all that confusion, fear, and doubt while still trying to do the right thing. Honestly, during those scenes, all I wanted to do was pull him into a hug and tell him he doesn't have to carry all of that alone anymore. ❤️

And when Liara got involved, the whole scene became even funnier. Compared to James, who's basically a "victim" forced to watch these two lovebirds being shamelessly affectionate , flirting and teasing each other the whole way since they got back together, Liara seems to be enjoying every second of it. Of course, she knows EXACTLY what's going on here. Even Shepard isn't even trying to be subtle anymore. 😂

Shepard: "I just think about what I'd lose if I fail." stares directly at Kaidan

Liara: "That's a terrible burden." -- Kaidan: "Hey, I can hear you!!!"

This scene really sends me, Kaidan is still happily soaking in the Sheaprd comment then Liara immediately said that out loud OMG everytime I see this Iam lauging so hard.

What makes it even cuter is the moment afterward, when after Kaidan talked about his plans and walked away, Shepard caught Liara watching him. I can only imagine Shepard feeling ridiculously proud after Liara compliments Kaidan's capabilities. Like, "Yeah, that's my boyfriend. He's amazing, isn't he?"

I'll save the third scene for another post because I still have so much I want to talk about. 😂 I've already written quite a lot here, so I'm going to go do some other things first—like hit the gym. I'll share more thoughts with you guys later!

I went into this video fully prepared to cry for the "Don't leave me behind" moments... and then I saw Ash carrying Kaidan. Wait, wait, wait... something isn't right here. what timeline is this? 😂

VIDEO LINK: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPUZQ4pmt-0&t=7s

I will share and talk about it using my firstplaythrough. So because I missed Kaidan's third hospital visit—the one where he had fully recovered—I ended up in a situation where I had to persuade him during the Citadel Coup. But that actually led to one of my faorite lines in the game❤️:

"Listen to your gut, Kaiden. You know in your gut that I am right." During my replay I don't have this line because Kadien just trust me so well and said: "I better don't regret that".

So then I successfully convinced Kaiden to trust me. After that, Kaidan and the Asari Councilor moved to stop Udina., and just in that time Udina pulled out his gun. I pulled the trigger almost without any hesitation, becasue in that moment my thinking was: "We have already lost a Councilor and we can afford to lose another, and there are still Ceberus behind us, just like Sheaprd said, we don't have time to negociation we need to go now".

I felt a bit bad about it at first because I usually lean toward Paragon choices- even though back then I've already made a lot of Regenade choices, just everytime I do it I feel a bit uncomfortable in my heart. I actually didn't make this choice for Kadien so he won't have to bear the burden and guilty - Just I always put mission first, even in front of the person I deeply love. Also to be honest I didn't expect that Kadien will take Udina down if I didn't so I am glad that Kadien don't have to do this and everything just turn out fine!

But that also make me think of what Kaden asked me: "If I hadn't backed down first, would you have taken me down". My answer will be always no but that's just what I say after everything already happened. Deep down, though, I don't even like to think about that scenario. I can totally understand why Kadien asked that question because he knew Shepard so well, bearing the burden of saving the Galaxy, everything personal have to leave behind, need to look at the bigger picture.

But I also think the situation itself is a bit more complicated than that question makes it sound, a bit extreme I think What Kaidne thought. Because as Shepard says, "I trusted you, and I knew you'd come around." If you've earned Kaidan's trust throughout the trilogy, whether as a friend or as a lover, I genuinely believe Kaiden knows Shepard well enough to have faith in him.

Even if he hadn't backed down, I don't think taking Kaidan down would have helped much for that situation. The most likely outcome, in my opinion, is that they would have remained in a standoff until Cerberus forces showed up, at which point they'd have no choice but to fight together. Another possibility is that Shepard might take some action but def not by killing Kaiden. I think Shepard would have tired to take Udina down directly before he could override the elevator, but of course Kaidan would probably try to stop him. If things had reached that point, the situation would have become much more complicated.

But I still don't think the overall outcome would have changed very much. At worst, either Kaidan or Shepard might have gotten hurt during the confrontation, they would still have had to deal with Cerberus forces or the coming Commander Bailey. The biggest variable, in my opinion, is that Udina might not have died in that exact moment. So that's my perspective and my feeling, what I thought at that time.😊

Another interesting things is that, in my last post, I was talking with another Redditor who said that he let Kaidan go through that experience so that Kaidan could learn from it, grow, and become stronger.

To be honest, I had never really thought about it that way before. Because my Sheaprd as a Commander, tends protect my squadmates and carry the burden myself, especially to someone I really care about like Kadien, Tali. I feel like it's my responsibility to shield them from the hardest choices. So whenever they're facing a difficult choice or a painful situation, my first thought is usually, "How can I help?" rather than "How can this help them grow?"

Maybe that's not always the healthiest approach, but it feels true to the kind of Shepard I play. I just genuinely enjoy helping and protecting people, I guess maybe that's also one of the reason why I like Tali so much because she always got in big trouble and need me to rescue😂😂. But I don't mean Tali is weak, instead I think she's quite capable at some point or I wouldn't love her so much. I might make another post about Tali in the future because I have a lot of thoughts about her character as well.

So now I'm curious: what kind of Commander are you guys? Are you the type who lets your squadmates make their own mistakes and grow from them, or do you tend to protect them whenever possible? 🤔

By the way, it's such a beautiful scene — just two of them standing together beneath a sea of stars, chatting, enjoying the rare peace moment. Neither of them is looking directly at each other at first, just both staring out into the stars for a while, reflecting on the people they care about and the war they're fighting, taking a moment to breathe and appreciate each other's company before facing an uncertain future.❤️

Some peope asked me about why I used almost 157.2 hours to finished the game in the last post, and honestly… it was completely an accident. Or maybe just entirely my fault 😂😭
Actually I replayed a huge part of ME3 after I finished the Priority of the quarian ship, including the Short leave DLC and Omega DLC ( Idon’t even know it’s DLC at that time 😂). Then it’s when I realized I had made two huge mistakes.
The first mistake was during the Krogan storyline. I was progressing through the main story way too fast because I was so immersed in the game , so I didn’t noticed message that Kadien sent me that he had already recoverd and left the hospital( Do the first and sec visiting, but missed the third one when he's completely recovered ), saying that he want to see me 🥺. So until the Cerberus attack on the Citadel, I genuinely still thought he was lying in that hospital bed the whole time.😂😂
So when I heard that the Citadel was under attack, I was so fucking worried 😭😭 and my brain immediately went like:
“Oh my god, Kaidan’s still in the hospital — I need to fucking save his ass out!”
Then I just saw Kadien, fully geared up 😳, escorting the Councilor like a total pro. My reaction was basically: That’s my boy! 😭❤️ Back in form and tougher than ever. I should never doubted him for a second. Back then I even posted a twitter for this to express my excitement for seeing all that.
Then Kaidan returned to the Normandy… and there was basically no conversation between us . I thought it felt a little weird, but somehow I didn’t think too much about it at the time — which is honestly insane in retrospect because HOW did I not realize something was wrong? 😂
The second mistake was even worse : I didn’t lock in my romance with Kaidan before starting the Citadel DLC.
So when Shepard got attacked at the restaurant and fell through the sushi place , the person who came to save me was Liara??? And don’t get me wrong — I really love Liara — but in that moment my brain was just screaming:
“WHERE THE HELL IS MY KAIDAN???”
I was getting attacked by a bunch of fully armed strangers with nothing but a tiny pistol , and this man wasn’t worried about me at all?
Later I checked YouTube and realized I had missed a huge amount of dialogue and scenes with Kaidan . Unfortunately, I didn’t have any earlier saves because I was way too obsessed with playing and completely forgot to keep backup saves.
So… I replayed the game from the beginning .
And honestly? I expected replaying everything to feel tiring, but somehow it didn’t. I still enjoyed it and love every second of it so much , especially the Mars mission with Kaidan ❤️. I’ll probably make another post about that later.
So yeah, it was an accident. A slightly imperfect first experience, I guess 😂 But it honestly didn’t affect my love for this game — or for Kaidan — even a little.

156.1 hours, I still can’t believe I finally finished this journey. What an incredible story.

My mind is honestly full of thoughts right now, and I still don’t know how to properly describe how I’m feeling after the ending. It's hard to put these feeling into words. Seeing Kaidan say “Don’t leave me behind” completely shattered me emotionally. I genuinely sat there crying for a while after it ended.

What I loved most about Mass Effect was the relationships between the crew. Watching these characters slowly build trust and become like a family across three games felt so real to me.

I don’t think I’m going to forget this experience for a very long time.

Thank you for staying with me throughout this journey and bringing me so many unforgettable emotions. It’s honestly difficult to describe what this experience means to me right now.

I’ve been way too obsessed with Mass Effect recently, I guess now it’s finally time to take a little break and figure out what to do next in real life 😂