Why can't I use my trained voice around people?
I've been voice training for several months (for a femme voice) and making good progress. I'm also fortunate to have a supportive workplace and friends but it has been a challenge trying to use my voice around people.
Just today we had our daily stand up meeting online where I planned to try out my trained voice on a very short sentence. I practiced many times before the meeting but when it was actually time to unmute and talk, my brain made me revert back to a masc voice. I recorded both my practice and what I actually said and the practice voice sounded fine but the actual was dysphoric as hell.
When I meet friends, I'm also unable to use the voice that I spend so much time training by myself.
I've tried pretending to have a conversation, repeating real sentences that I said, recording a pretend vlog, etc and I can do my trained voice properly because I'm alone but it's so hard to translate that into talking to others.
Does anyone know how to overcome this mental block?