u/Skye-violet

I'm wondering if anyone here has experienced something similar and is comfortable sharing.

I'm diagnosed with DID and in treatment. I was sexually abused by a family member during childhood. My memories have been returning very slowly and fragmented over time. Recently, I've started wondering whether I may also have been strangled or choked after the abuse. I keep dreaming about it and have what seems like somatic flashbacks. I don't know if this is an actual memory or something my mind is trying to make sense of, so I want to approach it carefully. I'm not looking for anyone to confirm or deny my memories.

I've been struggling with several cognitive and physical (somatic) symptoms for a long time, and I wonder whether repeated choking could have contributed to any of them, also in childhood.

So if you're comfortable sharing, what were the (long term) effects for you and how did it impact your trauma memories and your symptoms?

I'm aware this is a very sensitive topic, I'm just hoping to hear from others who have lived through something similar.

Thank you for reading, and apologies for any broken English X

I have already been no-contact with half of my family for a while. Today my therapist suggested for me to consider going no-contact with my mother's side as well (at least for a month), because they think my healing process may be stagnating. I'm still stuck in old patterns and struggle to talk in therapy. Parts keep being repressed.

I'm curious about the experiences of others who have made a similar decision.

How did going no-contact affect your healing or therapy? What changed for you, your system or your parts? Did you notice any differences in communication, safety, memories, or overall stability?

Thank you x