How to deal with being clocky
Basically I'm out of money for anymore surgery. I've had FFS, even more facial procedures, BA. HRT for 5 years. But it doesn't matter as I'm still visibly trans.
Everyone knows I'm a tranny without me coming out and it makes me suicidal to think everyone sees me as trans.
I just want to pass but I'll never get there and be one of the lucky women. And I don't know how to go foward in life knowing I won't be like them. I'll always look like a tranny and never be seen as me.
I was able to keep going hoping time and surgeries would give me a chance to look normal.
This comes after I was harrased by a man and all of friends had to support me with telling me I had to accept I will look trans but at least I can look good.
But to me this is horrendous. I need hope it can better.
I can't accept that I will always look trans - to me that is existing as a caricatures of being a woman.
I've spent all of my savings and in the UK I will never have any more surgery unless I win the lottery