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Trigger warning: traumatic experience

My algorthm keeps telling me to cross post this here, so here you go. I got struck by lightning. I thought this was a thing people made up. 0/10. Do not recommend. Google says lots of people have experienced this. I hope thats wrong

My experience... I was working outside in a thunderstorm. The sky got filled with a sizzle. My hair stood on end. And kaboom. A bomb went off. Blinding white light. I was standing in a puddle. I was electrocuted while being thrown across the parking lot by a sound wave.

My ear drums ruptured. I woke up with burns anywhere metal had been touching me. Blood was dripping from my ears. There was a black char mark less than a foot away from where I was originally standing. This is the singular most painful and traumatizing thing that has ever happened to me.

I used to love thunderstorms. I have panic attacks now that cause something similar to seizures. I also have a service animal for the seizures. Im lucky to be alive. This happened over 10 years ago and it still affects my every day life

I got struck by lightning. I thought this was a thing people made up. 0/10. Do not recommend. The google says lots of people have experienced this. Have you?

I am a 38 almost A? The girls sit to the side. Lots of open space in the middle. At 38, the right is slightly bigger and sags a bit more. Every bra I've tried cuts the armpits and has open space in the middle. I gave up about 20 years ago. I wear sports bras, but the nips nip. I would like a real bra

I have long, thick, curly hair. I have excema, anxiety, adhd, and depression. I usually shower once week. I have a pits and bits bird bath daily. Scrub the pits and groin areas with a soapy rag. I shower when my hair is gross. I work from home, have ac, and am a homebody.

Tldr: I have been sure that I did not want children since I was a child. I was told the usual "but, what ifs" when I requested an elective hysterectomy at 18. Fought for years. What if your future non-existant husband? You'll regret...blah blah blah. I'm sorry if the full post is ranting. I just got told again that this was not an option because...reasons. I'm fuming

My mom owned a preschool my whole life. I knew I didnt want kids by the time I was 9. Fast forward to adulthood. I had my first period forced by birth control at 17 yrs old. I have PCOS. I have medical problems that make pregnancy dangerous.

They still wouldnt do it. What if your future husband wants kids? Why does an imaginary man have more rights to my body than me? Im bi. What if it's not a man? Also if my future husband wants kids I wouldn't marry him because I don't want kids.

I am now 38. I've been dealing with awful periods that come and go as they please with no warning. Oh, its been 4 months? Slight cramp? Blood bath. A period that last 45 days...sure, why not? I hate it. I want the organs that do this to me out.

Side note. Married a partner who is fine with no kids 12 years ago. He's still fine with it as of yesterday. The hypothetical husband has an opinion and he's fine with me getting sterilized.

Now to the question. For women who has succeeded in getting sterilized...how? Please bless me with your wisdom. For context, I live in a US state that hates women (gulf south). Please help. At this point I'd pay out of pocket just to make the painful surprise periods stop.

How do I convince a doctor that I am sane, and I know what I want?