u/Smeadow2

Could do with some giggles so please share your own giggles or Lil parts cuteness..

To start us off...

For a large part of my life I would declare very confidently that I was very in touch with my inner four year old. Oh Reader, I had NO idea...

Had a part comment that it was really good we knew about the dissociation/parts because "now we get the nice toothpaste." (Suspect under age 6 part.)

Told my therapist that an upside was "at least i find myself clinically fascinating" - the fact she thought this was hilarious was one of the best parts of my week. Love it when parts feel seen and understood.

I am 46, single, freezing only at this point. Trauma is short versionof why a partnership and pregnancy hasnt happened for me...

I have taken on big debt and sold my car to pay for 2 cycles - i have no money for further. 2.1 Amh which was only reason clinic agreed to take me on at my age.

Cycle 1- at least 11 follicles. Dual trigger. 2 mature eggs. The rest completely empty.

Cycle 2- had retrieval this morning. Dr switched me to Menopur this time. I pushed pretty strongly based on my reading and my intuition screaming at me to trigger early. Which we did when 3 lead follicles were at 16mm.

After which I found that my country (because of legislation) doesnt ever do rescue IVM meaning any M1 eggs resulting from early trigger were an even lower bet than my research had suggested.... arggghhhh!!!!

Lots of talking to eggs, asking blessings, praying.

Just got the call- 7 retrieved- FIVE at M2 and 1 at M1.

None of it guarantees anything as I know how brutal the drop off funnel can be. AND so thankful in this season to be able to hold some hope for carrying my own baby. Those of you in this group know how precious these little pieces of hope are.