u/Smil3Shad3

So! I am blind in my right eye. I lack depth perception, and this game has a looot of visual noise. Can I get build suggestions to compensate? Because I keep getting blindsided (Literally) by enemies. Because I have to choose to look at the map vs keeping an eye on my surroundings. I have text size maxed, and enemy highlights on, but I still struggle to read the popups reliably, and struggle to pick out enemies from the background. The directional arrows help a lot, but it's often tricky. I have just started trying to conquer Iron Gate. I hated my time in Velmorne (Mostly because I found it depressing lol)

I currently use,
Striga,

Koschei

Falling Star

Relic: Parasite

Fetish: Belladona

Ring : Dynamo

Stormball and Rotten Fiend (Just got burning stake. Am gonna level it.)

Faith build/providence bead, blessed hits, and blessed aim.

I was making my way through the scarlet coast felt this usual pit in my stomach. Until I killed my first wave. Then that feeling flipped from terror to rage and zeal!

I imagine it's only more intense as time goes on. These moments of suddenly turning to face an enemy walking beside you. The terror giving way to a righteous rage. To burn and purge the corruptiom!

Had my first calamity only to realize half way to abstraction, everything was dead. I felt powerful.

Made the jump on a whim thinking, oh the enemies will be a bit harder, but it won't be too bad. Feels like a huuuuge mistake lol. Any advice? What is world corruption? Cataclysm?

Edit: Fully plan to stick to it. Just a bit overwhelmed by all the new gameplay elements.

So I had this sleeping bag growing up given to me by my stepmother, except I can't remember the important details to easily track it down. Hoping someone here could help me find it or something close. As it was unfortunately ruined by circumstance out of my control. But I remember it really fondly.

Brand/: It may have been one of the major brands like Coleman, but I'm unsure. I'm pretty sure it was an REI brand, but not 100%. Around 2004ish maybe earlier. It was a gift for a graduation. Hence I assume it was quality.

Description: It was a heavy cloth/cottonish material. Not exactly waterproof just heavily layers for the outer shell. It was blue and grey. I think it was color-blocked in big sections, but it may have just been all one color. I believe predominantly blue exterior. Grey interior. The inside was really soft and plush. Not rough at all, but very warm. Like a quality flannel or fleece material. It was pretty heavy, and had a single stretchy black band for roll up.

Any help would be greatly appreciated or even similar suggestions. Thanks so much!

Can anyone recommend a good, affordable priced dentist in Salem or Keizer that takes Delta Dental 🙏 I'm desperate.

Hope this is allowed. Anyone know/seen the Ragatha cardigan sell out before? Did it restock? Will it?

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An if not, if someone has one they'd be willing to sell/part with 2x. I'd really like to get my hands on it.

Some background:

I don't know if other people will rekate to this experience, but to cope with how inconsistent my childhood was and how deeply it wittled my sense of identity formation and self down to nothing. I became chunibyo (at least a very diluted form.) Since well before middle school. And arguably well into my 20s-30s.

I immersed myself so deep into fiction that it often became my map of navigating the real world. I thought friendships could be deepened by sacrifice. I thought love could heal. I thought the darkness of my life was my origin story to overcome. And i assumed having friendships so deep you'd face everything in life together forever side by side was somehow possible. So many other things. I tried to be a hero, to save people. To endure the suffering of the world so others didn't have to. It gave me such a profound purpose, but also enabled so much deeper pain and hurt.

I wanted so badly to become the characters I admired. Often cutting my hair and altering my style of dress to embody them better. Evening taking on iconic traits. I did everything I could to be them because I didn't know who I was.

Yet as the years went on, i worked on my self in therapy. Did my best to heal. To not hurt those I loved after losing people to my own demons/trauma.

I have built my values, built boundaries, my window of tolerance. So much. And all of this led me to realize, my obsession with fiction to the point of trying to become someone fictional, to apply the language of stories and fiction overtop the language and chaos of reality was not and has never been possible.

At 32 my old paradigm has finally shifted from wanting to side line myself to become another.

To instead be myself and draw strength and critically approach fictiom and stories from a lense of what can I add to myself. This centering me instead of forgetting me. I hope this makes sense?

Does it? Because at first I thought very black and white upon learning this. I needed to shelve the fiction chasing/coping. To learn reality. To adapt better to its chaos. Because fiction doesn't have chaos. Even the most wild stories have the logic of language binding them to theme and consistency.

I have learned more in the middle of things. That if I approach mindfully i can apply things through more Journaling and reflection. I can love, embrace comfort elements and hold onto lessons mindfully.

Does this make sense? I tried explaining it to my partner and they 100% didn't get it. They felt because they inherently couldn't understand the origin of the behavior. They didn't have trauma like mine. So they couldn't understand how I ever got so engrossed. Seeing the entire behavior as suitable for a child. Less so an adult....

Something about this lingers, hurts... I suddenly feel very alone processing this exciting breakthrough. Anyone else experienced this? Understand it? Please?