Ik this question be spammed here but my discover weekly kinda sellin.
Really into indie rock/emotional hardcore the most rn. But Also currently really love indie folk, screamo, dsbm, hardstyle, and ug rap Obvs. Plz give reccs tho I dig anything. Just don’t give me massivee lists because I will probably not be able to listen to all of them >,<
oh my fididjdidi ive been sober for two months and still have ten months left for my probation and still being on a bunch of drug subs does NOT help i wanna get hugghhh SOOO BAD does anyone have advice like what do i doooooooooooo i WANNA GET HIGH AHHHH AHHH AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHH HELP HELP ME PLEA
The older I get it’s like the more understanding I have for this dude and the music he makes, especially through the lens of a black man in America. There are genuinely a handful of rappers who have influenced the genres as much as he has through his production and aesthetic alone. And his discography really just shows a glimpse into his lifelong struggle with metal illness. To be so disturbed, such a genius, and to still keep it rawer than anyone else in the industry. Bro. Glazin like a Krispy Kreme in dis bih idgaf I’ll forever appreciate this dude and the inspiration he’s been to me.
you may not like it ladies but THIS is what peak basking looks like..
I have a very faint memory of this weird show that I watched as a kid. I think it was primarily focused on safety education and stuff, but I remember it doing it in a kinda graphic and fear mongering type of way. I only have a few memories of episodes/moments from it:
One episode was, I think about first aid. The episode took place in this African school that was kinda remote, where a lion attack took place. One of the school kids got attacked, on I think, his arm or leg, and it was pretty graphic. Obviously it was makeup/SFX, but I don’t remember being able to tell—they had full intentions of making it as realistic as they could, and that’s the part that made it stick with me until now. I can imagine it picture perfect in my head. After this, either the main characters, (will get more into later) or some sort of instructor demonstrated first aid on the wound. I don’t remember it in detail, like if they showed how to apply a tourniquet or if it was just wrapping the wound, but the main focus was I guess how to practice first aid in the event in some sort of serious injury.
I’m 100% sure that there was a graphic injury shown and tended to, and that it was caused by a lion attack, maybe could’ve been a different animal but I remember a lion. I’m also fairly certain the setting was in Africa and that most the kids there were African.
The other episode I remember was about fire safety. The whole thing was that, if you play with fire, an invisible guy named “Mr. Burn” comes to burn you. I’m not kidding. Like he was a legitimate character they made and I remember this because he scared the shit out of me. They might’ve shown him through that trope of seeing an invisible person by floating clothes, but the whole thing was that you couldn’t see him. And there was an examples I believe of kids playing with fire and getting burnt by him. I remember especially a closeup of someone’s finger getting burnt and it turning black. I don’t remember the plot or how it ended but those were the main things.
There’s one more thing that I remember, the general structure of the show. I remember the show mainly followed these two kids (could’ve been more), I think a boy and a girl, and them visiting someone who I guess would take them on these “adventures”. Another major premise was that they would spin a globe, put their finger on it, and that’s where the plot would take place.
I cannot confidently say I’m 100% sure that this premise is connected to the show. These memories are so fuzzy for me, and there could be a chance that the whole globe thing was from some other show that I’ve mistakenly connected it to, or that these are separate memories from separate shows, but I’m pretty sure it was the same show and the globe thing is how they started. I mean an episode in Africa would definitely make sense if that’s just where the globe took them. My memories of that layout are kinda clear, it’s just not as vivid as the memories of those two episodes.
I tried asking ChatGPT to no avail, and tried google searching it a bunch using the verbatim tool. Other than a bunch of results of Mr. Burns from The Simpsons, I’m at a loss. I watched this stuff when I was really young, probably around 2008-2013. I think we used to have cable but it got cut off when I was really young, so I mainly grew up on channels like PBS Kids and Qubo. Though I remember watching shows on there from the 90’s so I can’t guarantee it’s from that time period. My memories of this are so fuzzy, I mean there might be a small chance that they were a group of commercials or something, or that it was some VHS we watched in class, but my memory shows it being a standalone show I saw on TV.
This sub is probably my last hope. So if someone finds this, I’d be eternally grateful because I’d love to rewatch it and see if it was as weird as I remember. If anyone else even barely knows what I’m talking about and remembers this show then honestly that’s all I need so I know I’m not crazy lmfao. This is the most information I could conjure off the top of my head, but I’ll try to give as much information as I can if anyone has any questions.
I have not told my roommates or my family or anyone other than a single friend and my ex that I attempted suicide roughly two months ago. I don’t want to needlessly worry them, I have been much better since then and don’t give power to those thoughts anymore. It has just been really, really difficult sometimes to deal with the repercussions of my past several month period of pure self-destruction.
I totaled my brand new car, and later crashed the rental that my insurance gave me a week later. I also needed to hire a lawyer after getting arrested for a traffic ticket warrant with ketamine and half a sheet of acid on me. No matter the amount, possession of K in my state is a felony charge. This led to my mom finding out that I sell/do drugs; while also finding out right after that I’ve been SHing. Though I’ve had scars for over three years, it’s just that the recent ones are way more visible. And in my first accident, I was wearing a long skirt, which just meant incessantly trying to convince my mom it was just fashion because she’d probably disown me if she found out I’m non binary. I also have had a big habit of playing music in my earbuds or car at maximum volume genuinely so I couldn’t hear my thoughts. I have pretty bad tinnitus now and think my hearing has been permanently damaged.
But I don’t even care about none of that shit, a criminal record, $7k+ in debt, it’s all fixable. What I’ll never be able to fix are the relationships I ruined. My day one friend group that I moved out with outta high school and live with currently told me that they’re kicking me out of the house once the lease ends in a few months, for playing music too loud, but mainly on the account that they no longer felt safe around me (I constantly talked about desiring and trying to buy a gun every day). Every other friendship I’ve had, some since 7th grade, ended on account of me either abusing substances or being a selfish asshole. The one that hurt the most was my ex. Even though she was in a new relationship, she always responded to my texts or calls because she knew I was alone and didn’t want me to hurt myself. I told her that I still loved her off half a gram of MDMA at a party and completely gave her a panic attack (I was the one who’d initially broke up with them). Still, she was the last one to go, only because I blocked her the next day since I knew that she wouldn’t leave me though I was just constantly hurting her. And even though I genuinely dream about her every week, I don’t even think I miss her as much as I just miss someone telling me that It’s gonna be okay.
Ever since that party where I took half a gram of Molly, I’ve been completely sober. It’s been about a month and a half. I’ve stopped SHing and no longer think of s*****, and also started taking my meds again. I stopped going out, deactivated my Instagram, and picked up old hobbies I used to love like painting and reading! (currently reading The Road Less Traveled). And I took getting kicked out as a sign for me to just start fresh and try college again, this time out of state. I still struggle with ED sometimes and wish I had the money for therapy but I’m still taking care of myself way more. I don’t recognize the person who I was a month ago at all. It’s like trying to remember a fucking Fever dream. But I just hate that it took all THAT for me to finally flip the switch, i guess. You know? Sometimes when I think about my situation too much I get sick and feel like i have to throw up. Sometimes I feel really shitty and go to text a rant to someone just to realize that I genuinely have not a single close friend left so I just open Reddit. Sometimes I can’t sleep from the ringing in my ears, or I wear a hoodie in 90°+ weather because I’m out of clean long sleeve shirts. Sometimes I wanna pity myself but I’m reminded that I’ve just been reaping what I sow. And sometimes I just wanna cry really fucking bad but I can’t. I wish things were different. But I know it’s okay. This’ll all pass and eventually I think I’ll have grown a beautiful forest from atop the ashes of the one before . Full of Love and art and Belonging . One day.
I genuinely don’t care if anyone reads this I probably won’t even check the replies if any. I just really had to write this down.
Tldr Who here remember rcb⁉️ 😂😂😂🤔 #throwbackkkk
I feel like at this point no one really respects him anymore or takes him seriously at all. He’s still talented tho but what do y’all think. I don’t really see people talk positively abt him anymore