u/Smooth_You1535

I feel miserable ....

The last night I had a dream of your engagement

Then saw how happy you are with your fiance

I got anxiety attack in my dreams

Unable to breath in reality and I woke up at 3am .

Couldn't sleep after that .

Even after taking sleeping pills these things are happening with me.

I don't want you in my life anymore, I know u are not worth it , I remember every disrespect you showed to me and how badly and rudely u treated me .

I remember every single thing.

I have accepted every single things and have also realised the circumstances but I don't know why I am feeling like this .

I can't find the reason of this heaviness in my chest , breathing issue and everything I am facing right now

I don't know how to deal with it.

Even though I am taking anxiety and depression pills still it is unbearable for me .

How can you be so happy while making the other person suffer like hell ?

How can you be at peace and calm while my entire life have been ruined ?

How can you disrespect and take rudely to the me when I was crying and begging you to understand my condition ?

I can't concentrate, I can't focus , I want to cry so hard but I am unable to cry .

How will I overcome all these things ??

Why the hell you came into my life ? It was already miserable and you made it more worst to its peak extend

I hate you and will hate you for the rest of my life .

Some feelings and some emotions are just stuck. Noatter how hard you try to pull them out of yourself it will never leave.

Untill you stop nurturing and nourishing them .

It will take time but one day it will be gone .

Have patience and wait for that one day !

DONOT GIVE UP !!

This anxiety attack, this heaviness in my chest, this feeling of being unable to breathe…

Sometimes the people who once felt like home become the very reason you no longer feel safe within yourself and they destroy the version of you that once knew how to love without fear.

Hope someday I will over come my anxiety and depression 😔

If you have any idea to get rid of this thing please help me out !

I was in a 3 years relationship..gave everything into it but the person never understood it ,talked to me rudely, never took accountability of the things he did and I never felt he love me like I do .

Now after breakup I got to know about Narcissist relationship and it was exactly the same thing in my case .

He is getting married,still he doesn't understand me ,still he talk to me rudely and blocked me from insta and wp .even after repeated assurance,he still said becoz of me his mental health is ruining, he is afraid that I will ruin his future marriage. I was crying like hell trying to make him understand that I won't do any such thing I am not that kind of person still he didn't listen . He never had any empathy for my tears . I have been in a very bad stage anxiety and depression since 8 months . Since he said I am selfish I don't care or consider about him or his situation.

It feels so miserable,I feel like ending my life .

I gave so much pure love ,but what I got in return was only hatred, blame and he threw me like a trash out his life . When I am innocent , I didn't do anything.

Now his words are hurting me bacoz it's my relationship and I never expected this from someone whom I loved like anything.

Will he ever in future regret about what he did to me ? Will he ever feel guilty?

What should I do ? How shall I take his hurtful words out of my mind .

I am an UPSC aspirant and here I am stuck in this shitty thing .

If anyone have ever gone through this please help me and give me some advice how shall I move on ?

PLEASEEEE........