u/Snoo-45959 — reddlx

Froggydex is filled out with breeds I've never had??

Hi! Apologies if this is a known thing, but... I have no idea why these breeds are so populated in the froggydex! I've had this account for a very long time (I want to say 8+ years) despite not touching it much, and I have no idea how this could've happened. I definitely never had 600 frogs above my level shipped to me!

Is this a known bug, or something...? I cannot figure out why this would be happening, LOL. Second image has frogs more my level, for comparison's sake.

u/Snoo-45959 — 8 days ago

▲ 48 r/ftm

How did going on T work for guys who don't prefer body hair?

I went on T a few months ago. I stopped after about a month and a half, because I all of a sudden realized I had a lot more changes than I thought I did, and it kind of freaked me out. Winter had kept me from seeing my body much, so it hit me all of a sudden and I got cold feet. The acne situation was also very bad for my self image.

I've always shaved, I understood that T would give me more body hair, but I thought I'd be fine with it and just willing to shave more (and hopefully come around to it in general once I was in a place where it wouldn't make me feel as dysphoric). That didn't happen, and months later I'm still occasionally feeling nauseous every time I see the random coarse hairs on my chest or have to shave my neck.

I always did have ~13 hairs on my neck that were coarse & needed to pluck, but since T, I've had enough that I need to shave. Other people probably can't notice, admittedly, but I can. I've been lurking on r\detrans since then, hoping to see input from other people who felt similarly, but that environment is a lot more cruel towards trans people than I expected. That didn't pan out.

Are there any other trans men out there who went on T, hated the body hair, and eventually grew to like it? I dunno. I'm well aware this is a conversation for a gender therpaist and not a subreddit, but I'd still like to hear others' opinions. I'm kind of worried a lot of my dysphoria is just internalized fatphobia and body dysmorphia (especially since the feelings of dysphoria have gotten much worse since going on T). The main thing I wanted out of T was fat redistribution, and that's not a one-and-done thing, so... I dunno.

I keep coming back to the idea of going back on T, lately, and then I look at the hair and I feel ill all over again. You can't choose what kind of man you transition into; I wanted something more androgynous but my gene pool seems to be bear flavored. I don't know how to reconcile that. I'm worried I just hate being a woman, and want to be a man with all the beauty standards of a woman to escape misogyny...? Who's to say.

I'm just hoping hearing the experiences of others will help me better understand myself. Would sincerely appreciate the insight of anyone else who's been in a similar situation. Thank you :)

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u/Snoo-45959 — 2 months ago

▲ 312 r/sillyboyclub

I want to disappear

I knew I was trans since I was fourteen. I started T a month ago. I'm turning 23 soon. Nothing was stopping me after I turned 18 except for my own cowardice. I was so worried about upsetting my parents that I kicked the can down the road for years and years and years, and now I'm in a hole. My hips are massive. It's bone. There's nothing I can do. My shoulders are microscopic.

T hasn't done anything except make me break out and feel like a freak. I'm so heavily pear shaped and there's nothing I can do about it. I've been trying to lose weight, but it's useless when I know I'll never have narrow hips. I try and stay silly and read manga about cute boys to cope but it makes me spiral and sob. I'll never have hips that look like that. I'm a massive freak. I was always an ugly woman and now I'm becoming a caricature of one.

I'm sick of girlmoding at my job. I'm the only "woman" engineer on the team and everyone treats me so differently. It makes me feel sick. I'll never be one of the boys, and I'll never even be hot. I'm this disgusting approximation of a person. I'll never be a person. I could've been! But I was too busy moping and being scared to go on T back when it could've done something for me. Even if I'd gotten on at age 20 I'd be in a much better place. But I didn't and I'm screwed.

I've never dated. I know it'd be asking too much of anyone to pretend I'm a man. I've eschewed all relationships in favor of trying to make my parents happy, and they fundamentally don't respect me. My mom asked if I got deluded into thinking I was trans because she ruined me forever by going on an experimental fetus-saving drug when she was pregnant with me. My dad was just disappointed. He's never "gotten a masculine vibe" from me.

I know I'm deluding myself. I'll never be respected and I'll never be loved, and it's a mess entirely of my own making. I've been ghosting all of my friends for months. The only people I talk to are my coworkers, and none of them respect me either. I'm the only employee without benefits, and I know it's because I'm lesser than all the real men In work with. I'll never be a cute slim guy with broad shoulders and narrow hips. The ugly fucking khun keychain is hideous and yet most days I still think my head is rounder and fatter than his. I disgust myself

u/Snoo-45959 — 5 months ago