It’s not a video, but I’m sending you an image I made of SDC because I miss watching his videos. I hope to see an SDC video about, Avengers: Doomsday, down the line.
I know SDC would cause even more destruction than Dr. Doom himself.
After 5 years on HRT, I wanted to share my timeline.
It’s funny being a man on estrogen because, to be honest, I feel like my face hasn't really changed at all. I have long hair now, but if you look at my face... it’s still me, with the same masculine face as always.
I’ve been trying to understand what external factors can make a face look more masculine, especially as a trans woman on HRT.
My hormone levels are fine, so I don’t completely understand what’s happening. I never passed perfectly, but during 2023 and 2024 I was gendered correctly much more often. During that time I slept well, took care of my health, and was thinner (around 60 kg).
At the end of 2025 I left my previous job, fell into a depressive period, and accepted a much more demanding job because it paid better. Since then I’ve been sleeping only around 3–4 hours a day on average. I’m doing it because I hope to someday afford FFS, but this year I’ve noticed my face looks significantly more masculine again.
I know this isn’t just dysphoria because people now misgender me much more often, and honestly it feels like my transition has gone backwards.
I also gained around 5 kg between 2024 and 2026 (I’m around 65 kg now), even though I barely eat. I wonder if chronic sleep deprivation, stress, weight gain, cortisol, or other lifestyle factors could be affecting my face.
Has anyone experienced something similar? What habits or factors do you think can masculinize facial appearance even with stable hormone levels?
A lot of trans girls who managed to pass within a few months probably wouldn’t understand this, and I don’t blame them. But as a trans girl who has been transitioning for years and still hasn’t managed to pass, I’ll admit those words hit me pretty hard.
The worst part isn’t other people saying them. The worst part is that sometimes I end up believing them myself.
I can’t really do boymode anymore because I have breasts, but in girlmode I feel ridiculous; like I’m just a masculine face with long hair trying to reach something that always feels out of reach.
I know it’s probably the dysphoria talking… but it still hurts.