Missing passion
So I haven't been with someone in a while and I'm actually fine with it. For the most part, I have a very rewarding life. Great career, good friends, stability.......
But I do find that I sometimes miss the passion of my youth. Let me explain, because I'm curious if you all are share a similar experience.
When I was younger, I felt my relationships were more enthusiastic and passionate. Like my girlfriends were so eager to give of themselves, explore the world with me, take risks to be with each other. I could really feel the intensity and interest from my partners. I'm ok now with just being with myself because lately relationships have been pretty jaded and energy draining. Everything seems like a conversation and a compromise. For example, even going to dinner is an ordeal, dietary restrictions and all. I have some women who don't even want to date if it's more than a 30 min drive. Of course, sitting here and writing it out ... It seems obvious....as we grow, we know ourselves more and settle less...
But I miss the whole novelty of falling into a person and actually dreaming of growing old together.
But I'm old now ....
And what it looks like is bedtime at 10, managing spoons, taking probiotics, and accepting that life may actually be more peaceful and less painful solo.