Just urge surfed.... Intense but So worth it
Today I had woken up in such a bingey mood and i could just feel it building up and up. I have a training day at work and lunch was provided... this was already very distressing but not to binge at work. Keep a long story short i was waiting for the train to get home and the binge urge hit so intense! I had sunglasses on and i could not stop crying. Its so hard to discrube when your not in the moment but its just so intense... food noise on steroids. I was trying to do a crossword to calm myself down ( legit was all that was in my bag), helped maybe 1%. Luckily my train home is about 25 minutes- when i arrived i knew i couldnt go home just yet so i waited in the libary and after about 5 minutes the urge had gone ( so about 45 minutes in total). Its so difficult to explain in the moment how awfull it feels- i even texted my mum saying i thought i was going to need to stay at hers tonight because i didnt feel safe around food ( i couldnt call her sadly as she wasnt free). I just want to say with urge surfing i sadly dont think there really is anything you can do to make it bearable. I was lucky that i was on a train and i physically was forced too- but the crying, heartbeat, all the physical symptoms. Anything reading this i just want them to know that the binge is never worth it and you will get through it- Even if you have to cry on a public train- Believe that you can! If anyone has any other tips below for urge surfing i would be intrested to see but sadly i think just avoiding food is the only tip!