u/SpaceCaptainJeeves

9.5 yr relationship; married; extremely cruel discard. The fucker waited until I was at my absolute lowest in terms of health, and kicked me when I was down.

Now, all of a sudden, the person whose behaviors drove me to the literal brink of suicide multiple times CARES whether the fuck I live or die.

And the saddest part is that part of me misses him so much, it would continue to sacrifice everything towards the goal of his happiness.

Well. I haven't had a realistic, accountable apology, and i don't foresee that it'd be even remotely safe for me to be vulnerable with the man who used to hurt me on purpose at least ten or fifteen times a year.

Do i still love him? Of course.
Do i trust him?
Fuck.
No.

This person is on the right track.