I hope to find someone who can hear me
Same story, overachiever from the beginning.... 97 in 10th.... choose JEE... wanted to chase dreams of doing electronics and work in the space sector...got 83 % in class 11 with first rank.... 23k in jee... 90 in boards.... might look good to some but not to my parents who think its either IITB, IITK, IIST or I am doomed for life. I am getting like 80 marks in adv mocks. i dont wanna revise... i have forgotten all the stuff... i have no more energy left in me... i wanna die... from the past 2 hours i am just searching for ways to suicide and crying continuously... today too everyone was so sad and saying kam marks hai itne kam expect ni kiye the... jee adv mai achha karna... but jee mai idts ki i will even qualify... ig i will have to commit suicide by 1st june cuz i really have no power left. i have been carrying myself for 2 years now, crying at midnights, no friend who hears me, no one who believes me, even i dont believe myself now, my parents were happy with my brother scoring 84, but with my 90 (3rd in school btw) they are unhappy, i got full marks in english, by readng the post you would know that how bad i am at it and still somehow in the only english exam i gave in 2 years, i got a 100, unfortunately due to this sysetem (which includes all, the parents, the teachers, CBSE, NTA, coachings, influencers) which has somehow normalised air 1, idts i would even be able to see my merit certificate, hope the rest of my strength reaches to someone who needs it like me and hopefully they dont have to take any extreme steps...
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SPACY-SOUL