I EAT THEM SO MUCH and ofc bcs of the carbs i’m so bloated. These round potatoes from aviko i hate them cuz they so easy to binge i think i ate more than half of the bag(600g). How can i cope with this? I feel so sick. I did kinda ok these past few days, today relapse. I can’t afford to go to the therapist to get some help. Kinda sad that this is what i can do to feel better.
I tried cleaning the eye, she scratches her little eye so much i don t know what i can do about it. She developed this overnight but i think is because some antibiotics got into her eye since she’s SICK( breathing with her mouth and coughing). She’s always been weak, she get sick pretty often. She’s stays in my room and i don t use perfumes or anything with a spray near her, when i clean my room i take her out. I clean her cage regularly.
I’m taking my budgie to the vet in a hour since it’s closed right now but I want to know what i can do in the meantime( like what fruits or vegetables i need to feed her more). I’m going to clean her cage and I’ll try to find better food for her so any recommendations is welcome.
My teeth are literally rotting, they’re breaking because of the cavities. They need to be fixed but it s so expensive to go to the dentist. Because i binge mostly sweets, I’m anemic. My hair is so weakened. I don’t have energy. I have a hard time memorizing stuff. I think about food 24/7. And ofc when i do binged REALLY BAD i do excessive exercise just to feel at ease. I have phases when i don’t eat that much but then i binge and eat and eat all.
I don’t know if it’s going to get any better, i just have to live with it.
I’ve been ok since my last post but this week was awful. Been lazying around cuz I didn’t wanted to study for my exam and bcs of the boredom i ate and ate. Dw I still take my exams seriously but the exam itself was hard. Today binged again. I don’t eat healthy at all, just stuff fried that has a lot of carbs. But at least I still exercise regularly so that’s good ig
I can’t get help
I can’t stop eating
I can’t stol bingeing
How can i deal with it. I feel so disgusting with how my stomach looks and with how full i feel. Even my acne has flared up and with how I’m eating right now I’m becoming anemic since my feritin levels was at 5,75 but my hemoglobin was in the normal range idk. The doctor said that it was at the beginning stage and if I don’t change my diet I can go full anemic. I don’t even get why I’m doing this. I drink tea everyday, in the morning grean tea and in the evening peppermint. I don’t even have money cuz I was schammed (125 euro) I don’t have a job cuz I’m a student , live with my grandma and mom. The only good thing is that I can get a scholarship cuz the monthly income in my house is less then the minimum salary per month. Is not that i am sad is just that I’m angry at myself that I can’t get better.
I’m trying to buy at least some healty stuff but i’m so picky and my family isn’t helping by buying me sugary stuff. I hate them for it and my brain also. No progress what so ever. Thinking about going to a psychiatrist( or a psychologist idk the name clearly since English is not my first language). I think I developed another bad habit.