u/Spare_Garden_3524

I binged so much, my stomach hurts so bad. I feel like vomiting and going to the bathroom a lot and it hurts so bad. What can i do , why do i do this? I need helo urgent

I just don’t understand why i’m always eating. I know it makes me feel sick but I just can’t stop! No one in my family and friends can t seem to understand how obsessed i am with food. I’m trying to compensate with working out more but I don t have a gym membership so home workouts are for me but it s getting so tiring. It s always the same cycle and I’m sick of it. I just want to and it all everything.
Everyone downplays it’s because I’m neither fat or skinny enough to get actual help.
I wish I was a normal person with healthy relationships with food

I ate biscuits with chocolate, with jam, fruits, chips , yogurt, a sandwich and i feel so fucking full but the worst part is that I know I want to eat more. If I could get away from food it will be perfect. I’m so dependent on food it hurts.

Another binge, i don t feel in control anymore. Just eating my life away. She probably won’t understand since she s so closed minded. I want help, i want to get better i don t know how to start.

I don’t know what came over me, i had a bite of something sweet then the next second I ate almost everything sweet in my house. How can i cope with the bloating and all the weight gain. I know i have to exercise, drink plenty of water and to try to not get to overwhelm. Is there anything else i can do??

I EAT THEM SO MUCH and ofc bcs of the carbs i’m so bloated. These round potatoes from aviko i hate them cuz they so easy to binge i think i ate more than half of the bag(600g). How can i cope with this? I feel so sick. I did kinda ok these past few days, today relapse. I can’t afford to go to the therapist to get some help. Kinda sad that this is what i can do to feel better.

My teeth are literally rotting, they’re breaking because of the cavities. They need to be fixed but it s so expensive to go to the dentist. Because i binge mostly sweets, I’m anemic. My hair is so weakened. I don’t have energy. I have a hard time memorizing stuff. I think about food 24/7. And ofc when i do binged REALLY BAD i do excessive exercise just to feel at ease. I have phases when i don’t eat that much but then i binge and eat and eat all.
I don’t know if it’s going to get any better, i just have to live with it.

I’ve been ok since my last post but this week was awful. Been lazying around cuz I didn’t wanted to study for my exam and bcs of the boredom i ate and ate. Dw I still take my exams seriously but the exam itself was hard. Today binged again. I don’t eat healthy at all, just stuff fried that has a lot of carbs. But at least I still exercise regularly so that’s good ig

I can’t get help
I can’t stop eating
I can’t stol bingeing

How can i deal with it. I feel so disgusting with how my stomach looks and with how full i feel. Even my acne has flared up and with how I’m eating right now I’m becoming anemic since my feritin levels was at 5,75 but my hemoglobin was in the normal range idk. The doctor said that it was at the beginning stage and if I don’t change my diet I can go full anemic. I don’t even get why I’m doing this. I drink tea everyday, in the morning grean tea and in the evening peppermint. I don’t even have money cuz I was schammed (125 euro) I don’t have a job cuz I’m a student , live with my grandma and mom. The only good thing is that I can get a scholarship cuz the monthly income in my house is less then the minimum salary per month. Is not that i am sad is just that I’m angry at myself that I can’t get better.

I’m trying to buy at least some healty stuff but i’m so picky and my family isn’t helping by buying me sugary stuff. I hate them for it and my brain also. No progress what so ever. Thinking about going to a psychiatrist( or a psychologist idk the name clearly since English is not my first language). I think I developed another bad habit.