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I am ADHD — totally and completely! And somehow, I made it through life as a school teacher of elementary, middle, and high school private school students in the US. All the while never realizing that I was the most ADHD person in the room. It’s actually why I was an amazing teacher and coach.

I’m on Vyvanse and Prozac because my therapist correctly diagnosed that I was depressed from lifelong internal belief that I was strange, an imposter, and totally alone. My life completely imploded at 51 (now 58M) when my father passed away. I’m still learning to love life again and in a totally new way. Not instrumentally, but for life’s intrinsic offerings.

Last night/this early morning I found myself in a dream where I had enough awareness to realize I was in a dream and to test certain propositions about being in a dream state. In a previous dream from weeks ago I noticed that I was able to sprint a race (400 meters aka one lap) without feeling the burning lung exhaustion that tends to ensue such a run. I found that to be a flaw/glitch in my Matrix program. I tested it again last night by doing hill sprints in my dream. Quick Aside: I was a serious athlete in my younger days and am well familiar with the pains of high-octane training. In the hill sprints I did in my dream, I felt the familiar burning sensation in my quads that comes with such rigorous training. Throughout the dream session — which was quite revealing about my mind and emotions— I kept testing various things knowing it was just a dream. But I also became lost in the dream at various times. Interacting with a wide and unrelated group of people from my life. Thank You, Prozac/Fluoxetine!!!!

Mother Earth is spinning on her axis at a speed equivalent to 1000 mph at the equator. 800 mph at my approximate location at 40° N latitude. She is moving in an elliptical orbit around the sun at around 67,000 mph. Two very distinct simultaneous movements. And Fluoxetine empowers me to feel them both.

Do any of you sense that when you’re alone at night, in a quiet dark location far from the constant noise and light of big cities, that when you lovingly press your heart against the bosom of Mother Earth you can feel Her breath, heartbeat, and subtle movements? Because I can, and just want to let you know that if you can too, you’re not alone.