DSPD and alcohol
I'm wondering if anyone has developed unhealthy habits with alcohol that arose from DSPD. Mine is really destructive and I know that addressing this will improve quality of life even if I can't tackle DSPD. The habit involves using alcohol to sedate me, and obviously this really destroys the quality of sleep plus all the other issues with alcohol. Probably the worst thing is my timing. I'll drink 3 or 4 drinks (usually beer) but it's right before bed. The times I drink earlier in the day I end up usually feeling rested and if anything it accomplishes what I initially turned to alcohol for, which is a trick to get my ass asleep at an hour that's more conducive to my work schedule. Strange as this may sound, I cannot even convince myself to drink earlier. The habit is so locked in to the specific routine that drinking has no appeal until a certain time before I'm trying to sleep and then it kicks in like a necessity. I know the alcohol habit is a problem and I am working on altering the triggers, associations, internal narrative, reward cycles, etc. Tho I know cognitively that this is not serving me, I get terrified of being in bed with my brain fully on and probably more active than it was all day, so the trauma of those all-night-no-sleep experiences seems worse than shitty sleep... but that's the night before. In reality, the shitty alcohol sleep actually feels worse the next day than a really short night of sleep. Any experiences that may relate, or things to share about your journey conquering an alcohol-sleep association would be appreciated.