u/Specific-Sundae2530

I've been mocked and belittled every day that I'm around my BPD family member. Put down because of my health and appearance (I'm physically disabled) They suddenly and unexpectedly try to make me jump like creeping up behind me, sudden hand movements to within an inch of my face, with full knowledge that I have PTSD from some very frightening stuff that's happened to me.

I felt so down this morning I couldn't stop crying so I went on a web chat with a mental health charity. They said it's abuse. Which it IS. Although I know it's not the done thing to say about persons with bpd which makes getting help for myself really hard. The person on the helpline even suggested I contact a DV charity.

This is my almost adult child not far off 18.

Give me advice or just hear me vent please 🙏

I have to attend a funeral next week. A sibling who I have all but gone no contact with will be there. They've made ridiculous allegations about me, and have said nasty things about the family member whose funeral it is, and in recent times had absolutely no relationship with the person who's passed, I'd say for around 7 years. They've done a lot of despicable things including abusing our mother (who was blind) when she was alive. Can I get through a funeral then a wake without feeling too stressed or speaking my mind!

So I put my weight as 1 kg as I don't actually know what my weight is because I don't have or want scales in the house.

The app is 'help at hand' I only signed up because my employer said that we can access free therapy through it.

I still might complain about it when I have the energy to do so. Has anyone here experienced having to declare your weight to access a service?