Should I pick this person as my bridesmaid?
So I’m having my sisters as my bridesmaids but I want to pick one of my family members who I would consider my sister. We are similar in age and speak everyday, I have always had it in my head she will be my bridesmaid. I even made her a bridesmaid proposal box (I haven’t asked anyone yet as waiting for the right time). Some background is that at my engagement party she left early because she had a Rave that was arranged prior to my engagement party being arranged. It did annoy me a bit but I had to bring myself back down to earth because it was a prior arrangement. She didn’t get me a card or anything to say congratulations, If it was me in her position I would have cancelled my rave and obviously got her a card. Her boyfriend is an idiot and I have told her he will not be coming to my wedding, and I will never associate myself with him again. She is close to one of my other family members who I don’t really get along with. We have been through a lot together and I have really had her back with situations. I want her there with me but I kind of feel like I’m not as appreciated to her, as she is to me. I’m nervous in case over time she gets annoyed with me because I hate her bf and maybe she drifts from me and I don’t want to look back on my wedding thinking I should have just went with my gut and picked my sisters. I think she will expecting that I pick her so it’s a bit difficult. (Ps I will never let him come between our relationship on my side but I don’t know how she will take it if for example in the future I don’t attend their wedding if it was to happen)
Any advice would be much appreciated!