u/SpecificSpiritual637

Basically I struggle with a few addictions. I have for a pretty long time and I can tell when I'm starting to develop an addiction and I also usually understand why I'm addicted to certain things but the newest one is just unexplainable to me. I started smoking like a week ago. I was curious so I asked a friend if she would let me try one of her cigarettes. She said she will get cigarettes with less nicotine than her usual ones since it would be my first time smoking. I tried it and it was just awful. My throat just ended up burning and it didn't make feel less stressed or something probably since it didn't have much nicotine. But even tho it was awful and I hated it I didn't stop. I don't understand why. So far I have only smoked the same cigarettes. It makes me feel nothing that's why I don't get why I can't stop. All my other addictions make me feel something which is why I haven't been able to stop but this? It's also not like peer pressure or something. I'm genuinely just confused