u/SpeckledEyes

When I was young, I loved CCM like Rebecca St. James, Newsboys, Zoegirl, etc. Then I spent several years actively avoiding music with 'demonic' drumbeats to try and stop my seizures. (Turns out it was epilepsy lol)

Since I started deconstructing a few years ago, I haven't listened to much 'Christian' music. I discovered artists and genres that really resonate with me, and have so much depth of feeling and meaning.

Today, I stumbled across Rebecca St. James' 2005 album, 'If I Had One Chance to Tell You Something'. I remember loving the sound of this, having intense feelings while listening to it, thinking it had such a heavy sound. I started listening to it today, and it just felt... glossy and empty somehow. I don't know if it's just the mood I'm in today, or if the words annoying me played a part, but it really is a different experience now than it was in the 2010's for me.

I know it's not all CCM, I still love many songs from the early Switchfoot library. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? How has music changed for you?