u/SprinklesOk5556

Like i am fucking ok with anything

I just wanna earn some money any jobs that accept people with no past experience

I seriously hate tha guy he doesn't lkve he beats me up all the time from childhood

He beat my mom when she was pregnant

He acts like he owns us that we are his property

I even have thoughts of beating him up

He now remains jobless and all the stress is on my mom as she has to manage the funds she takes loans to run the house

And my bum ass father acts loke nothing is wrong

God i wish he was just dead a good for nothing

piece of shit

having a friend feels ao good like anything you do instantly feels better to do

If yu are going somewhere if you are sad happy

A friend always makes it better

I am patheic ugly useless worthless

And won't amount to anything in life and i am probably in deepresion idk

But having a friend felt so good but i don't have any friends In real life

Back when i was in 10 there a group of guys who were pretty religious and for some time i really believed they were kind

But once in computer class they were having a conversation about raping women i am not kidding

One of them litteraly said he would rape someone in thw future and go to jail this guy was from bihar who came to nepal for studies

One another guy who was a bhaun i guess also keot repetedly teasing and harrsing random woman

Most boys would use disgusting foul language against women

luckyly i sat in front bench with another innocent guy

Only a few guys were truly good

most of these boys looked nice and kind on outside

I just wanted to vent this out since it was on my mind for some time

my family i guess has about 20 to 30 lakhs might be a bit more but less than 50 i guess

My mom is in constant stress

My father is home now doesn't work righr now

He was aborad but now is home

And can't go abroad due to the war situation in the middle east

Idk why i don't feel sad today was the last exam

Our class had a party like 15 of us came

Cut cake wrote on our shirts

I have hope i will pass

I wasn't a good student nor a good child for my parents

I hope to change and make it

Better and make my mom proud

I have been not so good

But i intend to change

Like all they do is beat them up not discipline them but to vent out their anger and frustration on their children

My dad also used to beat me a lot

And this guys fucking excuse was"if i don't beat you who else would i beat up" that was this guys excuse

I never had a girlfriend though i am only 19

I wonder what a romantic relationship with a girl is really like

Do you just look at someone and fall in love

Or talk with them a lot go through hardships help eachother build trust then fall in love

Or is it just talk get interested fuck a lot then get bored or lose interest

Most people never fall in love they just find the person attractive enough to have fun

Just when you except life will get better another wave of fuck you come along your way

Muji life bhaneko up and down hoina ra

Yo down down kina bhairaxa xa ra

The 18 year old guy in rolpa who almost beat a child to death

What legal actions can he face

Since he is 18 he can go to jail right

growing up in our village there was a lot of hate

i didn't know why

I remember once a group of boys tried beat my mama they came in groups they were magars i think

They hated us cause we are dalits

And when we called the police somehow the police said it was our mistake

I don't know how the new gov will deal with this

But there is some hope i guess

As long as caste hate exists nepal will remain a underdeveloped country