I just got on antidepressants and all the self loathing and hopeless voices are gone

GUYS I HAVENT HAD ANY SELF HATING or UN(aliv)ing THOUGHTS, I feel normal, I feel like I want to live and do stuff again, gym and everything

It’s not like serotonin ssri that can effect in bad ways, it’s a ssrn called bupropion

Guys there is hope, it’s crazy how some chemicals in our brain make such a difference in how we think or feel

Ask your doctor, it’s only 3 dollars a bottle

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 3 days ago

Guys I got antidepressants, class 2 bupropion, you guys need to try it

GUYS I HAVENT HAD ANY SELF HATING OR SUICDAL THOUGHTS, I feel normal, I feel like I want to live and do stuff again, gym and everything

It’s not like serotonin ssri that can effect in bad ways, it’s a ssrn

Guys there is hope, it’s crazy how some chemicals in our brain make such a difference in how we think or feel

Ask your doctor, it’s only 3 dollars a bottle

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 4 days ago

I’m at such a low right now

I am so tired, so exhausted, I feel nothing towards my hobbies, passions or goals,

I don’t want to have money, I don’t want a family, I don’t want love, I don’t feel anything not bored, not happy, not angry, not even tired a lot

I just want to cease,

After the one time of imagining the pleasure of ending it all, so amazing that it made me smile and cry tears being completely relaxed

when I get stressed and desperate for comfort the only thing I have left is reminding I have the option to cease my miserable existence when I want to, but to not completely want it, I tell myself to keep going to make myself suffer

WHAT DO I DO, when I hate myself so much so I don’t want to help myself

u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 11 days ago

a woman loved me and we sailed the sea together, then I woke up from my dream

Ever felt so happy that you woke up happy, then tried to go back to sleep

Maybe one day goslins, we won’t have to sleep to feel love

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 15 days ago

I love the minifreak but the lack of filter envelope and more osc parameters makes it hard to do some basic stuff on other synths

Any relate to this? I was trying to make a blade runner patch

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 1 month ago

I hate glasses need help with frames

So I need to wear glasses, but I hate how they make me look, all my friends have them and don’t look nerdy they got beards and either have hair or no hair, but I don’t got anything, I’m in my 20s but I can tell I only have a few years left with hair before I have to shave bald, and my beard is gonna take a decade to actually grow

But is their any frames you guys know that look good with a big head, 5 finger forehead, with no beard in the next 3 years, that looks masculine

Any frame recommendations

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 1 month ago

What components do I get to make my own midi keyboard, velocity and polyphony

I was hoping to make either a decent keyboard like Alesis or artuira or fatar type, but I am willing to do diy ugly looking for a cheaper price but I need the sensors and stuff but I don’t know where to look,

I don’t need anything fancy

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

What website or list of components are best for synth

Let’s say you could only use one type forever, 1 capacitor, one resistor, one envelope, one etc, exception to oscillators and filters? What are the best chips for a square wave for example and best chips for the sine, square, wave table, ladder filter, low pass, resonance, etc

Or best component for reverb, I’m pretty new to look for this stuff or terminology but I’m trying to get into it

Any list or database I would appreciate, cause I don’t know what capacitor moog or sequential would use, or what is reliable and meant for audio and what is consider garbage.

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

What feels better or more practical, encoder or potentiometer

I am wondering if it’s better to build a digital controller with a pot or encoder, what are pros and cons, or is a resistant encoder just better over all?

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

Where do I get these motors

How does Melbourne Delia and Nina do their motorized pots?

Would I buy a china Amazon cheap brushless drone motor and just twist it? Or do I somehow put a sensor on it,

Or is there an alternative solution? I really want to known where to get these encoders motorized, it’s so cool to memorize parameter values when changing patches, or realtime visual modulation, it even mimics stops or resistance

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

Where do you guys get your pots and sliders?

Or do you guys research and buy in bulk manufactured parts?

Also I was wondering how do you guys build midi and mpe controllers, what sensors or springs would I look at?

I can’t exactly afford a nice keybed so I want to build one out of wood or order 3d printed components

I want to look at schematics for how professional boards are made like Fatar and Osmose, but they don’t exactly be specific, so is there any place where someone can break down these mechanisms and technology?

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

I like a laptop I want, I can get it at an affordable good price, but there is one for 350 dollars more for 16gb ram/memory, same specs and everything

should I wait till memorial day sale, for a good computer with same specs, but 16gb memory or wait to see if I can get the 32gb memory and 1tb instead of 512gb of storage

the gpu, battery, screen, processor are the same.

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

I like a laptop I want, I can get it at an affordable good price, but there is one for 350 dollars more for 16gb ram/memory, same specs and everything

should I wait till memorial day sale, for a good computer with same specs, but 16gb memory or wait to see if I can get the 32gb memory and 1tb instead of 512gb of storage

the gpu, battery, screen, processor are the same.

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

I like a laptop I want, I can get it at an affordable good price, but there is one for 350 dollars more for 16gb ram/memory, same specs and everything

should I wait till memorial day sale, for a good computer with same specs, but 16gb memory or wait to see if I can get the 32gb memory and 1tb instead of 512gb of storage

the gpu, battery, screen, processor are the same.

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

300-400 USD, USA

LAPTOP QUESTIONNAIRE

  • Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase.

USA 300-400, but willing stretch to 500 to get a graphics card of 4-6gb vram

  • Are you open to refurbs/used?
    • yes but battery life needs to be good, I am okay with scratches and stuff
  • How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life?
    • Performance, Battery life, build quality, in order from most important to least
  • How important is weight and thinness to you?
    • Does not matter
  • Do you have a preferred screen size? If indifferent, put N/A.
    • anything 12 - 14 inches
  • Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run.
    • Music software and plugins, da vinci, opentoonz, bricklink studio, rendering, programming
  • If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want?
    • Minecraft, nothing too intensive, but being to run java with 32 chunks without frying up, can serve as a decent benchmark, but I dont want to really game, but able to hand rendering and creative software
  • Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)?
    • no touch screen or anything fancy, a clicky keyboard would be nice though, but I just need atleast 2-3 usb ports and 1 hdmi, and 1 aux
  • Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion.
    • 14-16gb of ram/memory would be nice, but 12gb should be good enough, a battery life of 6-8hours, some integrated graphics to hopefully match close to half or less the power of the Amd 6700 XT, and a screen that is easy to see during daylight, and decent cpu 4 cores?
    • I want to run linux, not chrome
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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

US 300 -400

LAPTOP QUESTIONNAIRE
Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase. Please do not use USD unless purchasing in the US:
-USD 300 preferable, but if not possible I will go to 400 -

Are you open to refurbs/used?
-i see a lot of WiFi and battery issues with refurbs, I am skeptical, but willing for a good price-

How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life?
-1) battery life 2) performance 3) build quality 4) form factor, just normal laptop is good, I don’t need touch or weird hardware niches-

How important is weight and thinness to you?
-I mean as long as it’s less than 20pounds I don’t mind anything, I am not trying to be discrete-

Do you have a preferred screen size? If indifferent, put N/A.
-12inches minimum but I prefer 14-18inches, I don’t want to squint or hunch to see-

Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run.
-Opentoonz, Surge, FL studios, Waveform, Bricklink Studios, Da Vinci, anything creative related necessary,-

If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want?
-Doom Eternal and space marines 2 HD, 60frames, but if that is too much then just simple games like Minecraft as a benchmark-

Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)?
-I like clicky sturdy keys that don’t get flung off my keyboard or replaceable easy where if torn off impossible to reattach, I would like the laptop not be flimsy and easy to break, and a hdmi port and lots of usb ports-

Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion.
-i want to be able to bring this in a bag to any where to work on programming, reliably for at least 8hours, 4gbvram and 16gb ram with 500 gb storage would be enough, ssd prefer and an AMD processor, i would like a amd gpu instead but if nividia is only good option compared to amd and intel, Nividia is fine-

If you feel vram is unnecessary for the creative program applications or increases price too much feel free to remove gpu if it is necessary

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 2 months ago

What is the best laptop for “gaming” specs

I don’t need 4k, 16-18inch, and no nividia gpu

I don’t really intend to game on it a lot, I just need lots of ram and memory and cpu for programs

I want to get a laptop but I don’t know what is a good brand, framework looks good cause it’s a repairable but exspensive

I would appreciate it if you guys knew a windows/linux laptop that won’t die after 5 years, 8 years is good 10 is great

I don’t need ai, but I would be able to install Linux Ubuntu on it

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u/Standard_Rooster_782 — 3 months ago