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for the last few months I havent been hungry, haven’t slept, and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I don’t have anything left and have lost all in in anything I used to love doing. Ive gotten addicted to scratching my hands and arms as well as masturbation and it feels like the only thing that’s holding me up. it feels like my whole body doesnt want to move and I feel like I can’t even get out of bed sometimes. recently it’s gotten worse and I feel like I’m slowly losing all grip that I have. i dont know if this is depression or not as I have been tested positive a few times professionally but have refused to be diagnosed in the past by my doctor and I feel empt. i can’t focus on people when they’re talking and I dont even know what could’ve happened to cause anything. I don’t know what to do.

For the last few months or so I haven’t been able to sleep, eat, talk to my friend, or draw whatever (i have lost all interest in it despite drawing for dozens of hours before) and have been a lot more of a jackass ot fairly everyone I know for no reason and I don’t know why. I don’t leave my room anymore and nothing that I used to like makes me feel good anymore. My Gpa dropped at the end of the year from a 3.8 to a 3.2. i have been working on scratching the skin off my hands less but I still manage to do it still. I have tried a lot of things and nothing has worked, and it seems like a lot of people that used to like me now really really don’t especially in the last few week. i haven’t been able to brush my teeth or hair as i physically don’t have the energy to anymore. I will randomly start to cry for no reason whatsoever and I don’t know what the fuck to do. I have been doing what I should and nothing works. I don’t know if I want to resort to ending my shit but I don’t know what’s left for me anymore either way. I don’t know if anyone has anything happen like this but it started for no fucking reason and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve recently gotten into spamtenna after 2 of my best friends cosplayed tenna at a con, and told me that I really really should get into it. just wondering if there’s any good fics that anyone’d recommend

Ever since I started watching severance, I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I have restrained myself to one episode a day- and even watched it while in a rural town in Costa Rica at the middle of the night. Yesterday I was at the movies, and in one of the trailers, for about 4 seconds there was the actor for Dylan G. in the background and actually almost busted a nerve. When I was watching the Nicks game the other day, I saw the actor for Irving and actually screamed. Today I was watching a funny animated video of the backrooms, and there was a light refrence to Sevrance in it and genuinly started tearing up and screamed. A few mins ago, I saw the "Let's go mr milkshake can you lock the fuck in meme" and genuinly was rolling on the ground laughing and crying for a good 10-15 mins. Half of my professional art page on instagram has just became fanart in which i have spent hours digitally painting- and I cant stop.

Has this happened to anyone else- if so, what works?

(also does anyone know of any good sources for severance merch, I just got my paycheck and am ready to blow it all.)

also I haven't finished season 2 yet so please for the love of god no spoilers