Any help with the fear in the door?
Hei!
I started static-line sky diving recently and, after 11 jumps, I finally passed the line progression, and, in about a week, I will have my first freefall jump (5sec ff from ~4000ft)
The transition itself, from line to myself, doesn't (yet) concern me that much, because I have already done Marking and Dummy 9 times, in total, so I kinda believe in myself that I will get the pilot out.
What scares me, is the door part.
After 11 jumps, I still walk to the door terrified, both when boarding the plane, as when having to exit it. Even the motorcycle ride to the DZ scares me; I look at the sky and I pray that I won't be allowed to jump on that weather, which is funny because the motorcycle ride has a much higher fatality rate than the jumps.
The exit itself, is not a problem; I jump when I am told to jump, and as usual, fear disappears from that point on-wards, but the door part, still overwhelming.
My dream is to get to wing-suit and I know that I will force myself through all 200+ jumps needed for it, if needed, because the only thing I could fear more, is running away from fears, but I want to enjoy the ride.
I assume that, in time, I might get used to it, but is there a way to accelerate it? Any kind of exercise I can do home, other than simulating the jump? I am trying to control my breathing while in the plane, I am not the kind that overreacts. I know that there are multiple systems in place to ensure my safety, even if I fail, but I am still missing something.
Might sound stupid, but I feel that the piece missing is the ADD experience. I feel that, if I were to feel it in action, I would get a boost of confidence in... everything... knowing that, yes, he is there with me, to save my ass, but I can't just let it deploy...