u/Stellariamedia

I'm kind of interested in taking a leave for a couple weeks to just kind of get mentally in a better place. It isn't to the level that I want to seek medical involvement, I just feel that knowing I have a break coming up and then having it would help my overall attitude & burning through all my UPT sounds ill advised.

...But I don't think I wanna tell them all that haha... or lie, either. What kinds of reasons are usually given for a PLOA? I am at a fresh warehouse with crazy turnover so my absence won't be felt I don't think. I don't do anything important.

Ima preface this with I had a bad day and so this will be a bit of a long, dramatic rant so if you aren't into that, cool.

How does anyone do this? For real? I transferred from a Sort Center (7.5 years) to a Fresh warehouse (about a month ago) purely because it got too hard to live on part time work and it was the closest place offering full time that didn't just cancel my transfer app.

So I DO need this job.

But I'm also so miserable. I've never worked anywhere where it was considered normal and okay to be in extreme physical pain and to just work through it. My fingers and toes will get so cold in even just the chiller that I almost can't manipulate the scanner or produce bags, while I'm fighting back tears. I often double up on hand warmers & I wear 2 pairs of socks, one of which are wool thermal socks, and while safety shoes aren't required here mine are warmer than my regular shoes so I've been wearing them. My toes still get so cold I lose feeling in them or they just hurt really bad. So you can imagine the trouble I have in the freezer. And I get it, these jobs need to get done, but my god there has to be SOMETHING besides "sucks to suck!" Right?? Sometimes I go into the bathroom just to run hot water over my fingers. At my old site, we were encouraged to report ANY pain. Now I can openly talk about being in excruciating pain and nobody cares.

And on the topic of the freezer, how the fuck are people with glasses supposed to do this shit? They fog so bad I can't see for crap, on top of the freezer being dim already. The only suggestion I've gotten is to pull the balaclava below my nose and that's gonna be a hard FUCK NO. I tried, and that shit hurts. And that's my damn face we are talking about, I'm not sacrificing the tip of my nose to Amazon for fucks sake. So I just... work blind. So I'm slow as hell and I can't really hunt for things if they aren't exactly where they are supposed to be. I know this is gonna bite me in the ass. I am usually a contacts wearer and I do have an eye appointment soon to get more but like... there should absolutely be a solution for glasses wearers. They aren't rare!

One time I had one of those freezer alarm things (I forget the name) on and I guess it was going off but silenced for a long time and NOBODY checked on me. Then another time, I put on a "clean" freezer suit and kept feeling buzzing and hearing beeping and it turns out someone else had left one of those in the pocket, on, and I had been going off for like an hour. NO check in. So why the fuck do we use these??? And do they actually clean these suits!?

And do stowers hide shit on purpose? The bin will be arranged so that what you want will literally be buried in the center with walls of items around it in a way that basically has to be intentional with how it's organized. Or a smaller thing tucked behind a bigger thing juuuuust perfectly so it's hidden until you move everything. Or, even more fun, the item is actually in the bin just above, below, or to the side. And this isn't like once in a while, it's like half the things I pick.

And god forbid something not be there, because the replacement will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS mean backtracking, which pisses off everyone behind you. And I get it for really perishable things, first in first out, whatever. But I've had this with shit like trash bags. Man, we passed this aisle a while ago you piece of shit what the fuuuuuck

And the boxes of produce in the chiller are so haphazard now, it's basically an obstacle course. And we don't have have onsite safety or amcare so that seems just fine and great.

It honestly feels like I'm being set up to fail.

Today was horrible. 2.5 hours in the chiller, straight to 2 hours in the freezer. The entire time I was looking forward to the fact I brought an instant noodle soup for lunch so I would be able to warm up. But someone unplugged the water dispenser that has hot water, so I got lukewarm crunchy noodles for lunch (non microwaveable container). I mentioned this to 3 separate people in leadership (just that the water dispenser being unplugged messed up my lunch) and nobody cared. And the break room fucking sucks in general, it's very small with no sinks. There's only 2 microwaves and I think the water was unplugged because if all 3 run at once I guess it is too much power draw and stuff shorts out or whatever. I'm already skinny and I've already lost weight working here, and I'm always cold so just let me eat! Guess it's back to PBJ??

Anyway, after that I requested to please get an ambient pick to finally warm up and they did give me a nice long one, but then I got 1 more short one and then immediately back to chiller again and again. I know it's "random" and that's where a lot of the work is but I just couldn't do it anymore and left at 9 hours instead of the full 10, after coming in late yesterday and working a half day.

Now we have prime week coming up and we have SET for 2 weeks and I want to fucking die. I cannot do 50 fucking hours there 2 weeks in a row. Luckily I have an assload of UPT so I'll survive I guess... for now...​

I've applied to transfer to my first choice building but they've canceled all my apps in the past so I'm not super hopeful. The nearest FC would be a way longer commute for me and they were recently publicized quite widely for a death and I'm still considering trying for that over this. That's how fucking shitty this place is.

I would also never order my groceries from here based on everything I've seen. I watched a guy drop an onion, I HEARD it crunch, and he picked it back up and put it in the bag.

I was honestly pretty sick of my old building but if I could do it full time, I'd SO go back. There I was considered a hard worker, I never got more than 1 doc coaching (for something really dumb that wasn't even my fault) & I had a bunch of positive ADAPTs, shout outs, etc. Here I feel like there's a target on my back, I'll never be good enough, and my days are numbered.

How do yall get by?

Two weeks ago I transferred to a different warehouse and every step of the way has been awful. First, they seemed surprised to see me on my first day. Apparently the training videos didn't save that I saw them, because a couple days ago all of my permissions were revoked and I had to watch them all again to be able to work. My badge didn't work in the vending machines my first week so I was constantly having to badger managers for things. The job itself is night and day from my last one. And now this.

My old schedule was Sun, Tues, Thurs. My new one is Sun-Wed. So for the last two Thursdays, 8 hours of UPT were taken (So, 16 hours overall). My schedule shows no scheduled shifts on Thursdays but they take UPT as if I missed my old shifts.

I tried using AtoZ after the first incident, but the time keeping people kicked it back and told me I had to talk to on-site HR. She isn't even there the majority of the time, but I did manage to speak to her last Monday and she took down my login and said she would look into it. But then it happened again yesterday, and none from the previous Thursday has been refunded so now I'm out 16 hours. I tried calling ERC last night and they said I have to talk to on-site HR. But I already did! And she travels a lot so I honestly don't know if she will be here this week or anytime soon.

I'm at a loss. How do I get this fixed if nobody will help me!?