u/Still_Night2678

It's mostly insomnia. But it's also a persecutor in high gear. Sometimes I can tell what the issue is and address it, but I'm new at this so it's not that often. "Skippy" has been more and more abusive for about a week. I can usually tolerate it, but I'm getting worn down.

I have been able to communicate with it sometimes. It started wailing one time when I told it that its "help" was actually causing me a lot of pain, so I can tell that hurting me isn't what it wants. But we are both new at this, so I understand it's going to take a lot of time and patience.

Tonight I'll try sitting with and observing the hurt and the ever present anxiety to see if that gets me anywhere. I'm not optimistic that it will.

I’m 67 and just had cornea surgery, and had my cataracts taken care of while they were in there. I waited five months for my corneas to stabilize before I went to get a new prescription. At this point, I’ve been seeing poorly for a couple of years even with eyeglasses, half blind for a few weeks after each surgery, and just putting up with a fuzzy world without glasses for five months, so I’m very excited to see again.

I got my new prescription from my eye doctor and took it to Walmart to be filled. I wear lined trifocals because progressives distort my vision too much. So I spent almost $400 on eyeglasses and sunglasses which arrived today. The close and medium vision in one eye is unacceptably fuzzy, and it’s both pairs of glasses so I suspect the prescription.

I’m going to take the glasses to my doctor so they can be measured for accuracy, but if the prescription is wrong I’m going to have to shell out for new lenses.

I was SO looking forward to being able to see again. I’m pretty miffed.

EDIT: I have been made aware that I can probably exchange them at no cost if the prescription needs adjustment, thanks to all.

I have an old friend I talk with a couple of times a year. I’ve been thinking of him a lot lately, and now I believe I know why. I intuited that he would have at least one friend who was a system. I reached out today and learned that he’s friends with two systems and is definitely someone I can talk with about what I’m experiencing. I can’t express how grateful I am right now, just when I was beginning to lose hope again.

I’m not talking about the littles who just don’t want to go to bed, here. In what ways does it serve a persecutor to cause insomnia? I try reasoning with them (co-con) which sometimes works.

I don’t think it was the persecutor who got offended when I tried box breathing (usually helps) and started yelling, “You have no right!” I cannot imagine what that was about. How could controlled breathing for relaxation be upsetting?

What are some sleep challenges and solutions you’ve found?

My general manager just called because I refused to speak on the phone with my bullying DM after he berated me for over seven minutes over a mistake I admitted to making and apologized for. I had asked the DM to move our communication to texts and emails going forward, so he took it to corporate.

I wonder how the other PMs under this person work with him, because I was told my park runs the smoothest of any he handles. Maybe the staff sergeant approach works with them. I don't know. But I won't tolerate that unprofessional abuse.

I'm writing to vent because I have a lot of difficulty with advocating for myself to authority. I've always just done my job to the best of my ability, being polite and professional with tenants and owners alike, and making my healthy boundaries clear, but standing up for myself to authority in heated situations causes internal backlash.

Maybe I'm too soft for this. I have no trouble handling problem tenants in ways where everyone wins, but this is my post-retirement job. I was my own boss for 40 years.

Anyway, thanks for reading this and please feel free to comment. If I'm wrong, I'd like to know.

I'm the on-site manager of a 90 unit mobile home park. I'm a contract worker, so not protected by labor laws. I've been dealing with mental illness all my life but have been stable with treatment for about ten years. I've had this job for 8. We are on our third owners, a boutique MHP company, for the past year and a half. My previous owner said I was the best manager he ever had. I have no assistant.

I'm pretty sure that my symptoms have recently gotten to the point where I need to admit myself to the hospital. There are no cell phones allowed, so I'd basically just disappear for a week or two, unlike other hospitalizations.

I don't know what to do about Corporate. Should I tell the truth? Should I just say I'm going to the hospital and leave it at that? I don't think I can tell them I'm suddenly leaving the country indefinitely on vacation. If I don't go in the hospital, my work won't get done anyway. It's that bad.

Please advise.

I run a mobile home park where the tenants own their homes and rent the land from us.

One of our tenants used to be an annoying gossip, but now she is reacting to her own delusions of neighbors' misbehavior and some have become frightened of her. I understand she has rights, but she can't be reasoned with at all.

It looks like I'll have to wait until someone gets proof of her breaking a law because local judges will only evict for non-payment or proven criminal activity.