42 Years Undiagnosed (46M) — High-Masking Late Discovery Baseline
Dropping a clean data transmission to clear my active RAM cache after a total system paradigm shift over the last three weeks.
My psychometrics show a CAT-Q of 142 and a RAADS-R of 129, heavily weighted at a 90 in Social Relatedness and a 51 in Assimilation. I run a permanent, high-compute manual emulation script to navigate the human world, which has resulted in profound, long-term executive burnout. This operates alongside total multi-sensory aphantasia, anauralia, and SDAM.
My cognitive engine is a hybrid: I process big concepts and 3D space in a wordless, image-free flash (Type 3), and use pure, soundless words (Type 1) strictly to translate those concepts step-by-step into linear language.
I don't need sympathy or casual attention. I am putting this out there to find my bearings and start the process of finding a small circle of friends where I can safely drop the compliance scripting.
My core requirement for future connections is simple: "Don’t worry about being gentle. Don’t be rude, but gentle is not necessary."
Anyone else with a similar late-discovery profile or a high-masking social relatedness score who communicates under that rule, let me know how you handled the initial unmasking phase.
Thanks for reading.