tug of war happening between awareness and identity
Namaskaram, I have been wondering about something lately. While doing Shambhavi, during the last phase, in that stillness, it's clear that I am not the mind; I am not the body, but throughout the day, I oscillate between the identity and awareness.
So there is a tug of war happening between awareness and identity. At what stage in the spiritual process does awareness increase to such an extent that it overpowers the identity?
Is it a matter of adding more kriyas or practices that generate more energy, which in turn increases the awareness, or is it about making the identity so small that only awareness remains?
I sometimes think it's because I haven't done shoonya or samyama; hence I'm facing this dilemma. Sometimes I feel I don't have sufficient energy to hold that awareness. I am amazing within myself but still get lost in the thinking process sometimes. I don't stay there for long though
What would be a correct way to approach this?