
That one guided meditation during monthly Satsang..
After reading this, I went into a flashback to the day when I was sitting on the stairs during the satsang as a volunteer and that guided meditation.
After the initial instructions I totally gave in to the process, and after that, I don’t know what happened. I was sitting there still... for how long, I don’t know.
There were two or three flies moving around my face. I was aware of them, but they were not bothering me at all. I stayed still there.
After some time, I opened my eyes with a little effort and saw my mother standing below the staircase. The other volunteers were putting up the hall, and she looked a little confused and worried about me. Just one look at her brought me out of that state.
What I felt after that, I still cannot fully articulate.
My whole body was filled with a certain kind of pleasantness. Even if I was sitting, it felt as if I was simply lying down in deep ease. I was not feeling thirsty. I was not feeling hungry. I was just enjoying that state.
It lasted for a few days strongly, and then slowly daily routine started again, but still I remained in a very pleasant state for almost 3–4 months, I guess.
Even now, sometimes when I focus on that memory, I can feel traces of it.
Since then, my awareness has improved a lot. The same simple things now look so deep and intense to me. People around me often wonder why such ordinary things affect me so profoundly.
I can focus much better in my work and other things if I consciously pay attention. Otherwise, I usually remain less bothered about what is happening around me.
I still don’t know exactly what happened to me that day... but something definitely changed.