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Because when we are in love we feel anyway fulfilled. So, the need to have an expectations of someone doing anything that we want is erased.

Expectations are of the mind and if in love mind is overpoured then it doesn't create anymore expectations.

In love, mind naturally falls in a state of acceptance. It is then idle. We don't find any trace of it.

In such state we remain in the closest proximity with life. Then, simply being is itself an experience.

That is when emotion turns sweet we can not hold it just the way it is.

We try to make it work on mental and physical level also. We don't acquire the distinction. When we drag that sweetness to substitute our thoughts and also try to use it fulfill physical needs then giving, taking, or making love gets start.

Which actually doesn't start but in that process we succeed to make our emotion bitter again.

It's not an outside problem but lack of awareness within to distinguish or get things properly.

Identity is the hold which mix up things from within.

The process of that false identification with the body and mind when it starts loosing up the grip naturally it moves towards awareness. From there things can be seen more clearly and vividly.

Then we can be with the sweetness of our emotion without having it to make use of give and take business or fulfill physical needs.

Automatisation.

Is it the only thing that the mind knows?

I feel so.

This is how it works.

Well, we can be conscious and make it work. But, there are few gates which we created unconsciously. While being in the world, conducting the situations of life through it there are temptations always which make those gates open and we get thrown into the state of unconsciousness again and be reactive.

Those transition points are very very intense and strong. Their intensity capture us, grill us in front of ourselves without even asking our permissions. Then when their intensity goes down we relocate ourselves.

Why mind keep choosing to fall back into unconsciousness even after tasted what it means to be conscious?

Is it because of it's previous tendency to be in unconscious states and try to find the shadows of joy in false play?

Today I was eating food compulsively and I was conscious about that because I was enough hungry.

Then I went on washing dishes. After a while when there was nothing to do I was just simply standing in one place. I just noticed within the boundary of my sensations there is still a very very strong desire to eat something else, something more.

I just couldn't make out. What's that? I was not hungry anymore. If this continue I will go on eating continuously throughout the day and still be feeling the same.

This is not just the desire for eating, with so many other things in my life the same is happening.

I was unable to handle the compulsion. It was driving me crazy. But at the same time my stomach was not empty 😂. What a cusp of a situation!

Then I suddenly remember in one YouTube video Sadhguru was mentioning to choose to remain with the pleasantness that spread within of having food after becoming enough hungry. I immediately searched for that pleasantness within. Oh my god. It was still there. And I tried to be with it. Thus, I got severely saved today. 😝

After this historic incident, I continued to see what's happening.

What I came up as conclusion is that in one side of the mirror there is always a process called desire. And on the other side of it there is always fulfillment.

But, that which has the freedom to choose we call it Jeeva, the sentient being.

My question is :- Is Jeeva a transient expression of consciousness itself to recognize it's own self in it's purest form than in a form which doesn't exist but seem to exist?

Because as soon as I chose to be in the pleasant side of the mirror, the other side no longer existed. Or, even I no longer existed. There is only fullness of life. It's not that it was not there earlier but I just got a chance to notice it.

How one can be at ease as long as one get caught up by the other side?

And if I choose to be with that pleasantness of experience then being at ease and feeling blissful does both happen simultaneously?

An emotion which can dissolve. It's like an chemical composition which can turn solid into liquid or liquid into vapour.

When devotion embraces the ego, it no more remains. A presence beyond boundaries becomes evident and everything gets set in precision.

That intoxication of being, making of clear distinction of unmenifested and it's manifestations is what devotion can bring forth in one.

Devoiding oneself from the identification of body and mind and finding there is no self actually without this identification; only an empty presence which makes everything possible in so many forms is the way to devotion.

This need to go somewhere always keeps us restless because we remain outside of life. Specially in the mind.

Mind is an endless opportunity giver. It can desire for endless things where lifetimes seem short. Once our handle is in mind we will be anyway trying to go somewhere or become something.

In my understanding, it is just the another side of the same coin.

Because, in unconsciousness mind exists, it actually doesn't exist.

As soon as we become conscious, mind loose it's existence and there is only consciousness exists.

Since, the nature of consciousness is limitless; so does the same consciousness appears as mind with it's limitless opportunities to go one after another desirable approaches as long as we want to remain in the side of unconsciousness.

Through this limitless play of consciousness, the moment the realisation dawns in the mind itself that anyway there is a limitless possibility hidden in my own depth, it wants to be that.

No more play then it wants to play.

It then wants to be or dissolve in the source itself.

And thus when you loose yourself completely, you be.

Until and unless we venture this terrain consciously, there's something may be profitable but nothing worthy enough of life.

We all are afraid of loosing anything that belong to us, but if we consciously pay attention we will eventually find that things don't belong to us rather we belong to them starting from our thoughts, emotions and everything.

Unconsciously we have been caught up in everything that we think ours or even us which are actually not ours or even us.

All are borrowed. And when it's time to pay back we have to pay all back.

So, it's better to choose a way consciously be it love, devotion, meditation to loose before getting thrashed by the situations of life to be what should be.

Or what already is.

The pain of ignorance happens when there is a realisation that I am ignorant.

That happening of realisation that I am ignorant is itself a compassion of grace.

Without that we keep struggling our way in worldly pursuits. Not knowing this way we will never attain fulfillment.

Mind goes on providing goals to achieve and life pass by like a breeze. And we never ever even pay attention to it.

Then, there is a gentle shift. A simple move.

And we find fulfillment is in life itself. Not in it's accessories.

Accessories are there to express life. Not otherwise.

This is one vow that everyone should love to take. Anger, depression, misery etc are nothing but our mind getting mismanaged. Because we want to attend mind by mind itself.

Whereas if mind gets touched by something which is beyond it but the source of it then it generates what it should generate.

So, when children come in contact with these life negative emotions through elders they are getting exposed to nothing but their(elder's) incompetencies; which elders thinks that they are getting things done by showing up these kinds of emotions very easily and quickly.

As things grow up and hit their faces then they realize that their brought up process was not so smart.

It's better to work upon oneself as individuals so that life excudes as an outburst of all inclusive healthy expressions on all levels to nourish each and every being around.

Intrinsically we all share one ground within.

This is the basis of including all as ours. Motherhood doesn't born out of physicality but as an expression of our basic intrinsic nature. Physically it takes certain forms of expression only. But, the longing to include another as one's own comes from within.

Since, one reality appears as many forms and when we operate as a form our own reality naturally pushes us to act up as an process of inclusion. Motherhood is the most sweetest and loveliest expression of this.

The willingness makes us go one step closer to our own reality and also sets us free from the narrowness of thinking to preserve just our own boundary.

Thus, we emote in a expanded way, our thoughts get broader and the process of inclusion takes us from our false identity to our true self cutting across the veiling power of untruth to unveil truth itself.

Instruments should be treated only as instruments.

The problem starts when we think we are nothing but the instruments.

Then the instrument's limitations overlap us. And we feel jammed on our way to perceive our own self.

But the jam is also a jam when we want to see through them. We want to cover a path where we are already at home.

We had never ever been lost actually. It's only our misperception that leads us to the delusion that we have been lost.

This is also all right. Since, the play needs to happen. Otherwise, there would be no play.

If there would be no play, there would have been no creation. Consciousness would have been feeling bored by itself. It wants to have fun. So, it created the play which we call creation.

Now, consciousness is having fun and we are scared like anything not knowing in reality we are nothing but consciousness itself.

We by our own will forgot ourselves and now we think we are the instruments called body and mind. Now, in the place of we are playing our created instruments, the instruments are playing us.

Now, we are in a very playful play.

No wonder, why sometimes we feel ourselves as fool of the fools!

We must be.

That feeling of finding ourselves as fools has also happened by our own demand that we forgot now.

This is true in my case.

My thoughts and emotions keeps me busy inside and I can not take any activity of the outside sometimes.

Basically, mind doesn't cooperate then. Because it is already engaged in something so no free space happen to take up anything new within mind. And without the support of mind any physical activity feels exhausting.

Why does mind do so?

To continue it's existence.

It thinks it can suppress life in this way till now how it was doing.

A glimpse of awareness happens means life bursts forth. Then, mind is not available anywhere.

In unawareness mind comes and goes like in darkness absence of clarity to see things comes and goes.

This preoccupation is a process happens when we decide to trust the past accumulations and go on with it.

But, if we choose the happening called life within us then every moment is an adventure because there everything is fresh and alive. Past accumulations are there where they should be but rumination over them all the time is not possible.

From that stand point we can decide how to make use of these thoughts and emotions but for that we need to stand there firmly.

If every now and then this preoccupation comes and takes us on ride then we will be feeling getting killed by the situations of life million times while being alive.

Goodness is related to personality, which is the creation of mind.

Only because of personality, we need goodness to make it move in right directions. Otherwise, it may go anywhere. Because the whole thing started unconsciously, so we now need readymade ways to fall in right places.

At least we think this is the way things happen.

But, there is only one right place and only one right way to be that is consciousness and recognising ourselves as that.

When we be that joy outpours itself as a natural outcome.

Then, it doesn't belong to the realm of mind.

Life experience itself at it's purest form.

One alone enjoys oneness.

Being fully alone and absolutely fulfilled unto itself.

What a self-sufficiency!

Life on it's own is self-sufficient.

How to strive?

Is there a easy way?

Yes, there is.

If we simply accept the fact that we have limits, then at that very moment we become one step beyond our limits.

Our limits are still there very much but we need not fight these limits. We can joyfully go beyond them. Let them play their own role. What's our problem? We need not interfere.

In fact when we interfere they gain more strength and become doubly intense then they should.

So, if we joyfully withdraw ourselves and stop participating in the paly of our limits, we can enjoy the moment of moments of our lives.

And slowly, we can keep increasing the counts. Then, one day we might get established there fully.

Who knows!

Nothing wrong in striving.

An new unmatched happening compare to what tendencies we have gathered till now is generally we refer to as disturbance.

But, if we only be as life within ourselves, then we will also remain new and fresh every moment.

Then every new happening we can respond in an invitation mood.

It can remind us of the truth.

We can be a little away from the wave of disturbance and observe it as it is being created, playing around and then subsiding itself.

Even if we react, that is also observable because the reaction also happens in the level of body and mind.

Thus, the disturbance becomes a pointer to what we are.

If we can make use of the disturbance to realise that which is free and still during the disturbance, then disturbance is also a stepping stone to our growth.

Wow....

That's how I feel like also sometimes. But, nobody agrees. With truth of course. Finally, I found a quote which matches my experience fully.

We need not go to another part of the universe to find it out. We can just be here very much on the planet and feel it.

We never ever pay attention to our being that is why we feel like we are bounded by our bodies and upto wherever it travels that is the area of our reach practically.

But, if we get touched by the core of our each and every experiences then we may find our reach is boundless always.

We need not carry the burden of a body to feel that freedom.

It is otherwise.

We need to burden free ourselves in our minds from the shell called a body and then mind can also hang to see ourselves as beings.

Or, as only one being.

Intensity is not force. It's beyond force.

Normally we use to perceive intensity as doing something with whatever energy we have.

That's a very poor way of perceiving.

Life is always vivbrating intensely without putting in anything at work.

If we just become willing, we can be on it's side.

If we become unwilling, we fall on other side.

On the other side, there is only a shadow of life, whose every activitical outcome is ultimately suffering, not because there is actually something called suffering but because within us there is only one real thirst that is the thirst of life and when we find ourselves as been faked by only it's shadow, we become miserable.

We want the real thing.

We don't want to be fooled.

For that there is only one shift needed.

Willingness from unwillingly or unconsciously hanging on to the other side.

How does this Coherence comes?

Sry, Coherence must be a natural phenomenon in this case.

I must ask "How does this Coherence go missing?"

As soon as these set of values or ethics enter human minds coherence first get disturbed and after sometimes it goes missing.

Then we don't know what life is but we pretend to know how to handle life's situations and in that pretention we scratch through ourselves.

Then, someone needs to point it out to us that we are going exactly opposite as we should be.

Then, though these morals and ethics don't want to leave us when we want to leave those yet truth as it is makes us navigate our way to it and gives us the realization of how we are.

Then, from that point view we can choose how our thinking should be and according to that our act will also become an expression of flow from within through out.

Who?

Mind.

It sometimes doesn't know that it is turning negative.

Why?

Simple.

There is no innate intelligence in it. It's purely based on logic of it's own gathered thoughts, that is also from outside above that it is connected to emotions.

Emotions are more closer to our existence or intelligence than mind.

Mind is more closer to instinct of self-preservation than emotions.

That is why when we turn negative our emotions turn bitter and there is a straight pointing out that we are going wrong somewhere.

Whereas mind goes by it's own logic and can think anything harmful to others when it feels threatens of it's taken identity of body and itself.

There is an intensity attached to negativity which is against life, but mind actually likes it and without giving a pause it wants to jump into this activity.

This same mind, can it get used to work according to life's own intelligence?

For that to happen it need to be completely free from the false identity it has taken and take a deep jump into the ocean of life itself.

Then?

Will then mind be not and only life shall be?