u/StressCommon2435

So I’m 20F and up until I was 19 years old I was a virgin due to a medical condition that essentially prevented me from being able to have sex (vaginismus) - I got on medication for anxiety and it kind of just went away so I had my first experience with a casual hookup and IMMEDITALEY got hooked- since February of this year I have accumulated 23 “bodies” I don’t know how to stop but I do know the root of the problem is loneliness and craving comfort - i don’t get emotionally attatched and really go about it in the way most men stereotypically do ; I guess it’s just starting to worry me and I’m not sure what to do; for context I do have a relatively hard childhood history but no sexual abuse or anything like that at all. I guess I just feel super isolated because I feel like no other woman my age are struggling with this and kinda just want someone to relate to!!

So I started cosmo school about 4 months ago and I feel like all the clients they give me are older men’s cuts- which is fine I enjoy cutting hair in general but I would much rather have more practice on color (highlights, vivid, etc.) and I see my classmates with less experience than me getting those … super frustrating idk