u/Strictlyunimportant

Hi guys, I wanted to ask advice on some stuff considering I’m quite inexperienced and haven’t really talked to anyone about it before. When I was 17 I was Sa’d and it took a lot of time to cope with and process but I’m doing a little better now considering I’ve been going through it alone. The problem is I haven’t kissed anyone since and I’ve been panicking since I’ve been talking to this guy I like for three months. I know he likes me back and constantly asks to go out with me but I’m afraid of kissing him. I’m afraid and I don’t know what I would tell him considering the fact that we’ve only met in person once, so I don’t feel like telling him what happened to me. I would like to but it’s nerve racking and makes me feel like I want to throw up every time I think about it. I’m just not sure what to do because I feel like an asshole rejecting his offers of going out just because I’m scared but I genuinely have panic attacks thinking about actually kissing people even though I want to. I know this probably sounds weird but I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. I’d appreciate some advice though. Thanks guys.