I feel so lonely on family vacations
I (23f) always feel lonely on family vacations. My siblings are way younger than me. We have a 10+ age gap. Neither of them are 10 yrs old and my parents and usually busy parenting. I love my mom but sometimes I can be hard to open up and talk to her sometimes. My stepdad and I close but don’t really get vulnerable with eachother. My aunt and I used to be very close until she had kids. Both are also under 10 years old. My grandpa is my best friend and whenever I go on big family vacations, I usually hangout and stay with my grandparents It’s like I’m their 4th kid. But of course, they are in their 70s and don’t do much except run errands a lot and I join them. My uncle and I have a small age gap so him, his wife, and I are pretty close and they like to be a little adventurous. But they have one on the way so I know that I won’t have the time like I used to. Either way there’s no one my age to hang out with. I do get lonely because I love to venture off and there’s no one to do it with. I miss being in my college city where I had all my friends. We would go shopping, hanging out, etc. I just want a companion to travel with.
Edit: I forgot to mention that I am a bit jealous of my siblings and cousins because they have someone to hangout with