u/Strong_Hand6084

I ended a 5 year relationship with M26 yesterday. I loved this man, he protected me, would have dropped anything for me (and did), and did all the things that made me smile (flowers, foodie dates, etc). He also helped me through the loss of my two dogs. On resume he would seem like such a loving partner, but he wasn’t.

Year 1 (I was 20 years old) I deleted my social media because he was jealous that people from my past were contacting me. I blocked over 12 numbers (all men) that were classmates/or friends because I was so afraid they’d message me and he would again think I’m cheating on him. (He always thought I was cheating on him…) He found those blocked numbers, and thought they were all people I was flirtatious with (the complete opposite). Still 5 years later he brings it up and makes me feel awful for blocking numbers that I did for him.

I stopped wearing tight jeans and crop tops because he felt that wasn’t respectable, so I stopped. I tried dressing up on dates and he still felt it was too much… I’m dressing up for HIM, but he did not like it.

The list goes on guys… so disappointed in myself for being brainwashed :/ I’m just a normal girl in a grad program now trying to get through this break up and find who I am now.

Day 1 without him…

I have a 2024 Honda Civic Sport. I have a 15 min commute to school and a 20min commute back home from school. I don’t really drive anywhere, I’m a grad student who just goes to school and comes back home. I’m not very knowledgeable about cars, is 17.0 city driving normal??

I commute in LA if that helps!

Thanks for taking the time to explain this to me :)