u/Stse11

I was thinking NBIS, Asts or RKLB.

I was thinking NBIS, Asts or RKLB.

Hey all, so I just want to tell y’all why I’m even here. So my older brother has psychosis this year. Before that he was very oppressive in the home and even my mom and dad shared that the home started to feel like prison. I on the one hand tried my absolute best to be the best brother I could, I never really got mad at him, I would let him talk endlessly about whatever topic it was. But that also led my mental health to go to shit if I’m being honest, I felt that I couldn’t be happy if he wasn’t happy, I would cry many nights because no matter how kind or loving I tried to be he kept treating me and my family like trash. So even after his psychosis he keeps treating us badly all of us. My mental health is doing better since I have started standing up and letting him know that certain things he does that are affecting me but the reason I was never able to speak up was because of how aggressive he got about anything. On top of that one of my younger siblings has a pyschotic episode recently and I’ve essentially been the man of the home keeping everything calm and handling all these things making the right decisions. I know most of what I typed is all over the place so apologies for that I’m just really tired from all of this. On top of that I have a stressful work environment that keeps adding to the stress and anxiety from all this. I’m trying to find a new job and leave this environment because quite frankly I don’t really know how long I keep this up, I’m running on fumes and it doesn’t seem that my older brother is trying to change. Any time I confront him on the way he treats us he’ll gaslight us and say something like oh your just jealous of what I have or it’s beacuse you didn’t get enough sleep that’s why your cranky. I managing to hold it together to say the least. But yeah there’s my rant just really wanted to share this. It’s been over 3 years since all this stuff started and never shared it with another person. Hopefully someone can just share or help me understand what I should do. Thanks all