u/StunningYesterday173

I've been masterbating for 5 years now. I can't stop I'm throwing away my future my life away I'm only 15 years old. And I've I'm so useless because of my addiction I can't stop nothing beats the urge. I can't do anything about it. And when I stop for a good 10 days I only feel worst more sad numb depressed tired for no reason. I genuinely hate lust but can't stop no matter what and it's slowly consuming my life away taking away all my potential. Im so isolated and lost my social skills because of it im so akward because of lust. Please help me asap it's ruining my life my days it's ruining everything. I have mental problems because of it. I have physical problems because of it to. I have blurry vision, weakened bones, no drive motivation , always tired drained brain fog 24/7, lost of smell and taste. Someone help me overcome lust

I've been addicted to masterbating since 2021 I was 11. I've never been able to stop. I did it everyday for 3 years straight. Until 2025 I started taking breaks. I would go more than 5 days I would feel great and then I would relapse. After a while I stopped feeling the effects of going on a No masterbation streak and felt numb. I felt down, sad , numb , depressed, and emotionless. I play soccer for highschool and if I masterbate 1 day before a game or practice I would play bad so I would skip games just because of it. I didn't get called up to varsity my sophomore year because of my addiction. Every time I do it I feel weak and sick. I can't sit still with out a dopamine spike . I can't control myself. I tried distracting myself by going on walks , new hobby's , playing the games , and focusing on my sport but no matter what the urges never go away I've tried everything possible I've seeked out for help tried praying but I can never stop it's genuinely impossible