u/Stunning_Spray_4975

I’ve been seeing a OCD therapist and psychiatrist for some time now. I am a mom of two young kids and have been experiencing intrusive thoughts for a few months about them. the thoughts themselves don’t really worry me but the feelings and urges that come with them. I keep getting intrusive thoughts and urges like it’s not a big deal to hurt them and I’ll be doing them a favor by hurting them because they can go to the afterlife and be happier (I’m not even religious- so I don’t know where this is coming from) or I’m doing them a favor because life is hard. I’ve told my OCD therapist this and she still treats it like OCD but I can’t find anyone that feels the way I do and I’m worried I’m experiencing psychosis or something crazy like I don’t know right from wrong anymore and maybe this is bigger than ocd.

I’ve been seeing a OCD therapist and psychiatrist for some time now. I am a mom of two young kids and have been experiencing intrusive thoughts for a few months about them. the thoughts themselves don’t really worry me but the feelings and urges that come with them. I keep getting intrusive thoughts and urges like it’s not a big deal to hurt them and I’ll be doing them a favor by hurting them because they can go to the afterlife and be happier (I’m not even religious- so I don’t know where this is coming from) or I’m doing them a favor because life is hard. I’ve told my OCD therapist this and she still treats it like OCD but I can’t find anyone that feels the way I do and I’m worried I’m experiencing psychosis or something crazy like I don’t know right from wrong anymore and maybe this is bigger than ocd.

I’ve been seeing a OCD therapist and psychiatrist for some time now. I am a mom of two young kids and have been experiencing intrusive thoughts for a few months about them. the thoughts themselves don’t really worry me but the feelings and urges that come with them. I keep getting intrusive thoughts and urges like it’s not a big deal to hurt them and I’ll be doing them a favor by hurting them because they can go to the afterlife and be happier (I’m not even religious- so I don’t know where this is coming from) or I’m doing them a favor because life is hard. I’ve told my OCD therapist this and she still treats it like OCD but I can’t find anyone that feels the way I do and I’m worried I’m experiencing psychosis or something crazy like I don’t know right from wrong anymore and maybe this is bigger than ocd.

I’ve been seeing a OCD therapist and psychiatrist for some time now. I am a mom of two young kids and have been experiencing intrusive thoughts for a few months about them. the thoughts themselves don’t really worry me but the feelings and urges that come with them. I keep getting intrusive thoughts and urges like it’s not a big deal to hurt them and I’ll be doing them a favor by hurting them because they can go to the afterlife and be happier (I’m not even religious- so I don’t know where this is coming from) or I’m doing them a favor because life is hard. I’ve told my OCD therapist this and she still treats it like OCD but I can’t find anyone that feels the way I do and I’m worried I’m experiencing psychosis or something crazy like I don’t know right from wrong anymore and maybe this is bigger than ocd.

I keep having thoughts of like “why are we here” “if we are going to die anyways, why not cut to the chase?” and then that turns into suicide ocd and harm ocd. it then goes to like “maybe in the afterlife everything will be better” and I’m not even religious. I start to get intrusive thoughts about harm. has anyone dealt with this? I keep telling myself it’s OCD. how do you deal with being uncomfortable all the time?

randomly I’m laying awake at night (tired but wide awake) and I hear my voice in my head spontaneously say something random but like i wasn’t thinking it myself- it was a random free flowing thought/sentence and I’m wondering if this is a real hallucination or if I’m over analyzing something normal here.

lately my ocd has been going from harm to suicide themes. the harm one comes and goes but the suicide one keeps me awake at night. I got the intrusive thought months ago when I was feeling depressed “I could myself” and it felt good. I immediately panicked and it sent me into a spiral for 3 months now. I can’t seem to figure out if I want to do it not l. when I say I don’t want to, I feel I am lying to myself and when I say I do want to, there is both a sense of relief and some panic. spoke to my ocd therapist yesterday and she thinks it’s still obsessional doubt and we should treat it as ocd for now. she said “im not concerned. I’m functionally certain you won’t hurt yourself” but she did seem more concerned than usual. So now I’m worried. I’m clearly obsessing but it’s almost like I want to do it I just don’t want to admit it to myself or i feel a lot of guilt to do it and hurt the people I love. The thoughts are both comforting and scary and I told her that and she said it was fine. What worried me yesterday is that I also told her that when someone says I’m not going to do it I feel kinda bad bc then it’s like I have to keep on living? Does ocd make you do stuff like this? If people are actually wanting to do it, is there this much doubt and obsession?

anyone have any luck with this? I’m on Prozac 80mg and Anafranil 25mg at night. I’ve been sweating a lot and shaking. I’ve noticed I’m having trouble sleeping (could be my high anxiety right now) and I find myself more hungry. how did it help with your ocd?