u/Subject_Owl1989

Im not attracted to all genders im attracted to only ALL female and male genders not just binary male and female genders i have a preference for women and rarely get attracted to male genders "isnt this just bisexuality" NOO !! I DONT WANT TO CALL IT "BISEXUALITY" i need something like uh micro label itll fall under the umbrella bisexuality but idc i want micro labelsss

I dont feel real even when talking to someone it diesnt feel real i constantly dont know who i am i wake up feeling like its not real i feel like my body isnt mines i hate myself i feel like kms i cant stop self harming i have cuts and scars all over my arms i alqays question my gender and identity who the hell am i ?? I have suspected bpd, and maybe even autism my psychiatrist suspects autism the most but they only spoke to me a few times so they are unsure they said it can be something different so im on the waiting list currently i always have mental breakdowns because of not knowing my identity i wanna find out but its hard i always make posts here because idk who to talk to how can i trust these people... ??