u/Successful-Bit-3601

Every time I hear Ace I have an existential crisis and prefer to avoid it completely, to avoid complications with my core sense of self, and failing to interrogate myself with my my own feeling at hand. And i really need somebody's elses thoughts about, I dont really know anyone who would be a good idea talking to about it in my personal life.

I only had one crush in my entire(for one week, in 7th grade, then mostly faded) and I never ever found anyone in my class appealing so to speak, I know the distinction between conventionally attractive folk and not, but I cannot distinct beyond that point and what makes bodily fat in some part of the body better or not. In my opinion none is way better. Do think the idea of a romantic relationship does sound nice, I don't understand what would motivate somebody to cheat on there partner since they already got one at home! I have always seen romantic relationships especially in shows so strange and foreign that I could no t belive how million of people can find a partner. All the undiretveness, the counterintuive methods, the whole things sounds impossible! I bet I could kill a guardian with only a sharp pen but this just sounds like a fantasy often then not. Why isn't one-sided feeling more often?

Ever since I the fifth grade kind of humor started I didn't think too much of it, but after I got some grip a pound the concepts and actually understood the repercussion of r34 and what these mediums end up making such atrocities. One time my mother suggested to my way older brother on the phone a really good italian corn film, I've expressed my disgust and she then called me a Puritano (pure at heart). My biggest shock was when I found out the adult content some absolute disgusting fellas whom draw about unappropriated behaviour with favourites female animators that I have watched since my childhood, and what's going on with cornel mustang! Why? WHy? WHY! This is one of many reasons I lost hope for mankind's continued existence. Ignorance is really bliss. In my opinion if you want to do the thing so badly just go to one of those cheap ass motels, Im sure it will probably resolve itself if you don't want to stay virgin, or get an anchor baby or something idk

Just the idea of an intimate relation already feel eeeew. I do not posses any problem with people whom do, but I dont understand why not to adopt? There are many children without parents which can cause serious mental troubles in one´s life after.

When I discovered the existence of asexuality when I was just a little brat I found it rader appealing but when I told my brother about he said that it's part of the LGBTQ community, and mocked me for being "gay".

*Just to clarify that we he was only 10 and where I live people aren't very progressive with these things, those are the kinds of jokes that people unfortunately do, being socially excepted here in the countryside.

I think many of these issues might have been due to me being too logical and critical about stuff or from me being neurodivergent which for a matter of a fact I never told my school or some friends about to avoid bulling or being perceived as diseased or debilitated somehow or perhaps I just need to wait a while for it to somehow it resolve itself later. Im still very young Im still not sure of who I'll become or want to become. Do any of you share a common experience or Im just crazy, a possibility perhaps?