u/Successful-Load4910

in another life i hope we could actually be in a relationship ,have cute dates , be silly together, watch the stars together because i know how much you love star gazing , call for hours,share our battles together,watch movies together,eat together, live together with a cat and a dog , you can be the cookhusband that you joked about,it’ll just be us living a happy life together , eventually this life has disappointed me with not giving me the only thing ive ever wanted but i hope one day you’ll understand how much i actually loved you.

an year from now , we might be complete strangers who knew everything or maybe atleast a little something about eachother, called alot , laughed alot , texted alot and am i allowed to say loved alot?

my question is , will you ever look back at all this? will you ever miss me like ill miss you? will you ever think of me? will you ever regret not communicating with me properly? will you never regret not trying to understand whats wrong? will you never regret asking me if im doing okay? will you never regret letting me go and will you ever find this text? because i want you to.

and i always will even tho u dont want a relationship until u tell me that ur fed up w me ill always love you

i wish youd tell me stuff instead of me just guessing what u could possibly be doing , you barely talk to me these days and whenever i confront u abt it u just ignore , when will you ever tell me anything?

things couldve worked out if we talked but after talking to you i realized you never understood me enough to work things out. understanding has always been the key ,which you lacked.

ntha paraya , like oru friendsum venda like venda nn alla pakshe indayal indayi illengil illa , veetil igane ottak irikka enjoying ur time but at the same time u feel so alone and feel like u have no one by ur side but ur too burnt out to put effort into friendships agane nthelum?(also dont judge based on wtv i wrote here cuz its just a small detail so dont come to conclusions)

i have no choice but to do it , because its the right thing to do and you might be clueless abt how ur time is ticking but i wish you loved me if not romantically atleast as a friend but u played me so bad

i wish i could tell u those

and yes its all over a boy , a stupid egoistic boy seriously fml. I met a guy abt a few months back talked to him for a bit and basically fell in love i always thought abt him day and night but he is such a red flag ,he claims that he likes me but doesnt want a relationship which is a rlly big red flag to even start w , at the same time he said he likes me back and he doesnt want me to look out for other guys nd shit but even after saying all that hes always dry w me , barely sends messages and it would be like a hi hey smth smth nd even if i reply on spot he doesnt reply back and leaves me on delivered for abt an avg of 6-7hours(that wasnt any 67 joke btw😭)and whenever i try to confront him abt how much he has hurt me w his actions cuz uk he obviously said he likes me so shouldnt he act like it? so when i confronted him he just ignored it and tried to change the topic and even when i pointed out on how he avoids confrontation he gets mad and starts blaming me on stuff and acts like mr right and i even told him like if he is not sure abt this he can leave cuz i am someone who can accept rejection and ITS FINE IF HE ISNT INTERESTED ONLY THING HE HAS TO DO IS JUST TO TELL ME THAT HE ISNT AND ILL REALLY REALLY REALLY LEAVE HIM ALONE but oh boy hes being so selfish hes making me stay and treat me shit but now i started avoiding him bit by bit its like progressing well and even when i tried to cut him off he pleaded to get back together w me so i just gave him a chance and hes still not becoming any better which pisses me off like how could u claim to like someone and not listen to them when they want to talk abt smth exciting or smth that made them sad? like how could u not react to it at all i mean atleast a friend would hear me out on these basic stuff so why cant a boy who claims to like me listen to me for once????????