u/SuchInside6033

Sometimes it's very easy for me to stop thinking about things I can't change or solve. For the last few days it has been nearly impossible to get out my own head. I can redirect myself for an hour at best, and then I go right back to thinking and googling and replaying. I feel this intense urge to "figure it out" but all I do is make myself miserable.

My thing that's bothering me right now is my appearance. Suddenly I felt like I dress too childishly but also too masculine and that my voice sounds weird. I've never been super self-conscious about how I dress and I don't know what triggered this. It's like my brain will pick something to get stuck on and it won't stop until I exhaust myself. I'm trying to stay off my phone and social media, but I get antsy when I'm alone with my thoughts too.

Please tell me if you've experienced this too. I know this is common for autistic people but I don't have any other autistic friends who I can ask. Are there any sensory tricks that I can use to shock myself out of it?

Hi guys,

I'm 22 and I was on testosterone for about 5 months last year before stopping. I was sure I was binary trans male. Near the end, I had a depressive episode and decided to stop HRT until my head was clearer. I never started back.

Now that I'm a year out from it, I'm starting to understand my gender differently. I was able to get an autism diagnosis after my depression lifted, and I feel that that was a big part of why I always felt a disconnect from womanhood. I thought that that disconnect meant that I was being pulled towards manhood. Now I know that gender dysphoria and gender non-conformity go with autism, and I wouldn't be happy in any binary category.

I know that 5 months on HRT is pretty negligible, but I'm ashamed I tried it and found it wasn't for me. There was no way I could've known about how being neurodivergent could affect my feelings about gender because I had completely slipped under the diagnosis radar until adulthood. I've gone by he/him pronouns since I was 17, and now I don't mind she/her pronouns too. My voice deepened slightly, and I cringe when I hear it played back. However, my friends and family say I sound and look mostly the same as before HRT, which makes me think my own perception is skewed by regret right now.

I'm definitely a lesbian. I've heard that lots of other non-binary/detrans/GNC lesbians have felt this way too. Does the shame about not feeling like a real man or woman go away with time? Should I forget all about the names and labels and just try to be?

Hi, just wanted to know what you guys thought of my voice. I was on T for 5 months but then figured out it wasn't for me. My biggest fear is that I sound like a man. What do you think?